Monday, November 15, 2010

tables turned

Now that Mike is home and trying to get used to a new way of life in his health and eating, I've been set back into yet another kidney stone that is just being so stubborn. Usually I can get them and flush them with in a day or so. This one has been hanging around now for approx two weeks and just with in the last couple of nights its been dancing in my insides. OMG talk about some major pain! I'd rather give birth again. Then forget it, if I sneeze it feels like my whole insides are going to come right through my crotch.. OH MY!!! I've been neglecting the cough, lol I've been sucking down fluids to cover that or suck on a peice of candy. LOL Forget that cough. I've been forcing fluids to try and flush it out. Orange juice, cranberry juice, water.. Anything that will work it through. for three days it's not gone anywhere. Mike has finally said today, "you think it's time to give in and go to the ER adn get checked out?" All I could do was start crying. I'm suppose to be the care taker here. I'm suppose to be the "mom" in all daily things. No one is suppose to take care of mom.
I guess b/c of the fibro and what i've been through, I feel like I need to be the bigger person. Deal with what I have and be on with it. but it doesn't seem to work out that way. Go figure. People tell me that it's better to go to the dr and get checked out. But I don't see it that way. Well, I didn't. But it's not moving now and hasnt been for at least two weeks. So I guess I need to buck up and get on with it. I'll let you know what end up in the end.
“Trouble and distress have come upon me, but your commands give me delight.”- Psalm 119:143

Friday, November 12, 2010

working toward normalcy

Things are slowly merging back into a normal existence around here. Mike got discharged from the hospital day before yesterday. We went and got his pay (finally) and then picked up all the things he needed for meds and dressings for his finger. Came home ate some dinner. I was so exhausted that I actually fell asleep by like 9pm or so. My poor precious hubby stayed up all night. I was at first coming down on him for no sleep.. But come to find out he was afraid to go to sleep. He thought the entire night about his mom, and friends his age and younger who have died from diabetic complications, High blood pressure, as well as his new diagnosis of kidney disease. He was balling his eyes out telling his daughter and I, how he was so afraid to leave us and worried about how we would survive without him. It broke my heart.
After absorbing what he said and calming him as much as we could, I finally looked at him and said, "ok from thinking the entire night, tell me what your game plan is to fight this whole thing." He replied with, " head on.." I asked, alone, with help, what?? I finally said ok, we've done this before a couple times. Everytime it starts out ok and you do well for awhile. Then, you slip up and fall back into the same patterns as always.. We all do. Our diets and exercise in our life just SUCKS! So now it's time to try and do it GOD's way. Let's put it all in GOd's lap and let him work through us and carry us through to complete what we start. For I know with my fibro and chronic fatigue is just as much as important and if I'm down and out I can't take care of him either. So it's a together thing.. If he is going to fight to live for his family. Then I can fight to lose weight and strengthen myself to help in taking care of him and our family also..
So I emailed the pastor as well as his wife, who in over the women's ministry and asked where do we go from here?? IT's time to become closer to God as well as each other and work to strengthen our bodies and help fix our bodies..
But that is where I stand as of now. It's going to be very difficult for the holidays. We both like to eat in celebration of the holiday and over indulge. Heck, I even suggested when I put back my weight these past few months, that I would just step back and wait till the new year and start fresh again. For I know what the holidays do to me, especially... But with this in our lives, I nor he cannot wait for that time. It has to be now. I'm searching online as much as I can for diabetic and cardiac diets for him to eat. I figured if I cooked that way for him, It would benefit me to eat the same way. I can lose weight and strengthen in that way also..

Sunday, November 7, 2010

good days are coming again

Chronicals 5:20
....He answered their prayers, because they trusted in him.
Update on Mike.. Things are looking good.. Today Mike's had lowered BP. It's not perfect, but it's not lethel either.. One was 165/?? and this afternoon it was 156/?? and tonight was 168/?? So he is doing better. From what it looks like will be home tomorrow night texting you his own updates.. Keep up the prayers, it... will keep being a great night!! Thanks everyone for your support...
The Dr said to him today, your ready to go home. We'll just increase your meds a bit and send you out. I looked at him quizically, really One good BP and your ready to run with it.. WOW! go figure. No testing, no let's see why we had this problem,let's monitor this new number with your BP and if you remain or lesson through out the day and night, then yes you can go home.. NOPE he says, "sometime when your home in your own enviroment you relax more and your BP automatically starts to go down." Really, ok is that why just last month, in the dr's office the dr wouldn't let him leave b/c it was at such a HIGH number it could of been a stroke or worse...she gave him a med and waiting till the BP dropped before she allowed him to go home. Problem being was that the medicine, the insurance wouldn't pay for. So we increased his old med to double and in hopes that worked. We learned the hard way it was making it worse.. Then dummy dr in hospital wanted to put him back on that one med, but half the dose he was taking.. IDIOTS! I think this time, anything ever happens (pray it doesn't) again, we will go to a hospital that his regular dr is affliated with so she can deal with him on a daily basis. NO more of this non-sense..
Goign to see her tomorrow after he gets discharged. Done with this....
Oh man I cant wait. I miss him home and snuggling with him.. OH DO I...

Saturday, November 6, 2010

thankfulness day 6

Colossians 2:7
rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness
Christina Bowlby StJean
ok catch up time.. need to catch up from 2-5th. With mike in the hospital and spending nights there, i've not been online but for updates and brief moments. A very strict charge nurse on the floor sent me home tonight. so going to put a wash in and have clean clothes.. Anyway,
2nd Very thankful for Dr's and their expiriences in medical issues..
3rd- Thankful for nurses and their fantastic personalities.
4th_thankful for modern day machines to have results to tests much much quicker
5th_ LOL thankful for my washer and dryer. Bc just over a month ago, I was washing in the bathtub or spending bookue bucks at the laundry mat, that sometimes my clothes came home dirtier then when i started... YUCKA!

6th I'm thankful for such wonderful family and friends. They are our rock and keeping the faith in helping us make it through these tough days with Mike..

some better days ahead?? FAITH

It has been so difficult these past few days with Mike in the hospital. We go in for blueing of his middle two fingers on his left hand and find his blood pressure through the roof and no matter what medication they give him or how many it still is high. It does go down while he is sleeping, not to perfect but casual high like 150 or so. Then after he wakes and starts moving around he stairs his daily climb. It's 170, the 180, then 190, then 199 and tonight before he went to bed it hit 212. It's unreal. The Dr's are baffled as to why no meds are working. They switch them and still nothing. With the infection gone in his fingers and it's healing slowly but surely. Now we have a new fear. For if his BP keeps being this high, he is going to start having more issues with his body. So I pray that somehow God will bless over the Dr's and nurses in finding out the right thing to help him get it down and be able to come home.
We are financially in a down slope. With him in the hospital and such we are short with half our rent. The water bill and electric are coming up and we have no money to how we are going to pay it. It scares me so badly. I wonder how mmany struggles we are to have before we can get settled and be able to live and not worry how to pay the bills. I don't mean anything else right now, just rent, utilities, gas in truck, etc etc the essentials. We don't have tv, phone or anything to that sort. Our friend has the internet. So we don't even pay that. Mike's daughter pays for the food, Thank you so much for that and she pays the overacher for the rent. So that covers us there. Or we wouldn't be making it. But now i'm worried we aren't going to make it at all.
I just need to stop, pray and have faith that Father in heaven knows what he is doing and will carry us through. I just have to keep all that in mind..
“[Instructions on Worship] I urge, then, first of all, that petitions, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving be made for all people— for kings and all those in authority, that we may live peaceful and quiet lives in all godliness and holiness.”- 1 Timothy 2:1-2

Sunday, October 31, 2010

30 days of Thankful Nov 1

Colossians 4:1 Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful.
What is real Thanksgiving? It is Gratitude, an attitude of being thankful for what He has done for me! When we fully recognize that our greatest problem has been solved, our indebtedness of sin, we can feel and know gratitude and thus honor God, by leading a life of response to Who and what...
(given by

Today being the first day of November starts the first and foremost something that I'm very thankful for. In all the midst of things that I'm worried about and stress over through the month or complain about of what we don't have, I do have so many things I'm thankful for. So I chose to jump on board with other friends of mine to do the 30 days of thankful and be able to put into writing and maybe see that the glories in my life far out weigh the struggles.. Like we're told over and over again through every trial there are treasures.. We'll here are my days of treasures.. And this commences day one of my treasure and what I'm thankful for.

I am so thankful for the most wonderful man on high. W/o him were would I be in life. A JUST God, a forgiving God. A God that has brought me from my weakest stations in life to the most happiest. With out his sacrifice we wouldn't have what we do..
So today being day One, I'm Thankful for my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for Him where would we all be... THANK YOU JESUS!


My hiding place, my safe refuge, my treasure, Lord, You are.... my friend and king anointed one, most holy...
Alot has happened in the last week. WOW! where does the time go? We celebrated Mel's 27th birthday. My gosh she was going on 17 when I met her dad. Geesh! Now she is almost thirty with two beauties for daughters. The three of them just fill our entire existence. Amazing. Nothing makes Mike so proud, then to hear, "Grampa..."and string something along in a sentence. He just giggles and I know that his heart melts every time. She is definently a grampa's girl. funny thing is that I'm not jealous. Why should I be? The girl has her Granny times too. She runs up to me, put her arms around my neck and says, "I love you soooooooooo much!" and gives you a huge kiss on the lips..
Kaylee, is the quiet one. But you see her feelings, expressions and love through her eyes. She knows who her granny and grampy are and she will smile, coo and roll her eyes at you... She is awesome!
I still have a deep longing for my son. He desires, that even though his dad is going through yet another separation from Whitney and they are going to counseling.That no matter what, he doesn't want to leave his dad. I admire the relationship he has with his dad, don't get me wrong. But I'm jealous in the same right. I miss my boy. I hate that he isn't living with us. I hate that I don't have a part in his life with raising him. I hate the idea that we had to move, to try and get on our feet and start a new life. I hate the idea that in order to do so, we are digging deeper in before we can get out.. When will we have a break??
We don't live beyond our means.. My goodness, we don't have tv. We share Internet with a friend(lord forgive us)We are paying rent, deposits, electric, water. That is it.. It's the deposits that is killing us. We are paying total with rent $1000 a month. that's Mike's two paychecks.. Then my check covers utilities and his meds.. i haven't even made it to the Dr to get my meds as of yet.. Never have the funds to get there. WE don't have car insurance, we drive a 94 chevy S10, that seems to break down in the most in opportune times. We had to get a payday loan to cover the entire expense and since then we've done nothing but continue to go downhill.
With Mel moving in, we are hoping for a pick up. she is suppose to be paying $300 a month and help with food. But right now she had a huge issue with the welfare up at home and now has to finally get to go apply in Fla state welfare, next week. But until she starts seeing some cash from it, she only pays $200 and helps with food.. That $200 doesn't cover the extra on the rent..
I know that through faith and God's word, we will be able to recover from this.. I just know it. I just have to continue to have the faith and do as I'm suppose to so I can except what He has in store for us..
Mike came out and said tonight, I really would love to go to heavy equipment school. You know that is my all out dream.. But for some reason, I'm being pushed or drawn to look further into marine tech schooling. :o) That's a huge plus, that school is right here in town! Where Heavy equipment is in Lakeland. Like Melissa said, I would love to move further south. But if the hospital in Pensacola is suppose to be one of the top in the nation, why would I leave. So I believe Mike feels the same way. So in the meantime, due to the fact that he really hates his job, we are going to start Monday and put applications in to different places and see what he can come up with. And again, with the grace and love of God, He will provide the right answers to where we belong.
Oh I did get to make it to the soup kitchen and food bank to volunteer on Weds. What a inspirational, wonder day, did I have. I not only felt blessed for being there and helping those less fortunate then I, but also I met some really wonderful ladies and gentlemen that filled my heart with such love and joy. I also got what they called "saved" I believe. Now all my life, I thought that meant being baptized. I didn't realize it wasn't that at all. Granted I have always had the Lord in my life and in my heart, and I've fought off Satan as much as I humanly possibly could. But it amazed me to have three women put their hands on me and pray over me. Two ladies, Jane ? and Toni Ferguson prayed for so many things to happen in my life as well as my husband's and to open my heart a bit more for Christ to be able to come in and linger and lead me down the path that I must tread. But they also blessed me for strength on my body, for my fibro and other ailments and when i raised my arms to let the spirit flow through, Jane also prayed that my Psoriasis BE GONE! as she stated and be free of my body. It was just fantastic! After they were done and I went to leave, I felt so free, so energetic. I couldn't believe it. I felt I could run the block. I worked with diligence and strength. It was fantastic! Come the next day, I still felt great and the next. It's now Wee early Sunday morning and I don't have any fibro great pains at all. I have a bit of ache from the humidity in the air and a pinch from a kidney stone releasing in my bladder. That's it! Oh and my Psoriasis. Is starting to break and clear up.. How cool is that?? PRAISE GOD! I just love it!!!!
Tomorrow, after church, they are going to have trunk or treat for the kids.. Just like they do in Newport and Scituate. Then after that is Halloween festivities and such inside the building. They are going to have a moon walk and other fun things for the kids as well as older ones.. I will have to take my camera and take pics so I can post on here..
Sorry about the drag post. Sometimes life just isn't all peaches and cream and lately it's been more sour then ripe. but then some days it's peaches and roses all in one.. Thanks be to Jesus for his love and I know He will answer our prayers, whether they be good or bad... Thank you Jesus!

Saturday, October 23, 2010

looking fwd to a great weekend

Well now that it's 3:37 am and I'm just now starting to wind down from a decent day, I thought I would jump in and put in our weekend plans. I'm actually pretty excited with a little bit of a disappointment. Later on this Saturday afternoon, my hubby and I are going to the bike rally they are having here in Holt, Fla.. We've been looking forward to this for a couple of months now. He even put in for the night off at work to be able to enjoy it and relax with out having to rush home and get ready for his ten o'clock shift. How cool a three day weekend..
Sure!!! They just informed him tonight at work that there is what they call a suicide watch (where a boy either threatens or teases or acts like he wants to take his life) and so they took his "time off" approval away. B/c with that they have to have a full staff of five there at all times. B/c one has to sit right inside the boy's tent and watch him breathe for the entire night. Seeing as there is ONLY five people there on staff for night watch. He isn't allotted his time off.
So now, since we have to wait for his pay til 2pm, we will only have a few hours of enjoyment there, instead of a whole entire evening. And of course this is the last night they will have the rally. CRAP!! Oh well, have to look at it on the bright side that we are even going at all. The weather is suppose to be warm and sunny and so we have to look forward to the little bits of pleasure we will have.
Then come Sunday we'll go to church. Hoping to make the 8:30 am service (ha ha if I wake on time. That's a toughy) Then Mike wants to go to Pensacola and explore, as well as go to the Harley dealer and poke around. This is Mike's most favorite place, next to the beach. Which have to say, was in that same conversation along with going to the the HD dealer. lol So we will have to see.
It is also our daughter's 27th birthday. We are planning a nice dinner along with her desire for an ice cream cake for dessert. So I have to say, all in all we are looking forward to a really splendid weekend. And I will get some walking exercise in this round. WOO HOO!!! I've missed my walks.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

another down day

Ok this has been like day 5 of my flare. It should be coming down and not feeling worse or spreading. Last night my shoulder blades were in so much agony that they burned. I took some medicine and came to bed and laid on the heating pad the entire night. Bad part of that is that, I must of laid too much at an angle b/c when I finally woke up today, I had troubles walking. My hip felt like it was all out of joint and instead of rotating like it should it felt like it was off and popping in and out and rotating around as I walked. Mann it was soo painful. So yet another day and night went by that Ive not done my walk. I think it's been almost a week since i've actually walked. I am making myself do things and I went to the pharmacy today to get Mike's insulin. Then I cooked and cleaned up supper and finished another two loads of wash today (oh yeh we finally got machines. had to rent from Aaron's but it's better paying the rental then killing myself everytime i do the wash and with Melissa here and kaylee puking the way she does, we just couldn't keep up) and made Mike's lunch. That was enough for me. After I folded the two loads and put them away, i put Mel's last load in wash and her other in the dryer. Now I'm the bed on the heating pad again. Vowing I won't fall asleep in any awkward positions. Don't want another day like today.
I tried going to the Dr and getting an appt set up with her. But I guess it's her DeFuniak day. So I'm going to try and call her tomorrow to get Mike's other prescription filled and get that appt. I need better meds to help. I really want to get some better help then, what I'm doing now.
We have been searching online for really cheap flights for Xmas. Looks like we just may have a very full house for Xmas this year. I"m so happy. I'm praying nightly that the prices stay with in range and I get to afford Jw coming down. I miss him sooo much!!!! Then he will be able to fly with the twins father and Amanda for companionship. I won't have to pay for a stewardess to fly with him.. how cool.. Keep your fingers crossed for me too please....

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

have to share this. It's so hits to home

Today's Truth

"With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters [and girlfriends] this should not be" (James 3:9 TNIV and girlfriends added).

Friend To Friend

Catherine and I set out for a lazy summer stroll through the neighborhood just before the fireflies emerged to celebrate the setting of the sun. We chatted about raising boys, working husbands, and decorating dilemmas. When we arrived back at her house, she invited me to come in and look at some fabric swatches for a new sofa. Before I knew it, a few minutes turned into a couple of hours.

"Oh, my!" I exclaimed. "It's ten o'clock . I've been gone for over two hours! I bet Steve's worried sick. He doesn't even know where I am. I'd better give him a call before I start back home."

When I dialed the number, the answering machine picked up. After I listened to my sweet Southern greeting, I left a bitter message.

"Steve, I was calling to let you know I'm at Catherine's. I thought you'd be worried, but apparently you don't even care because you won't even pick up the phone!" Click. I said my goodbyes to Catherine and left feeling somewhat dejected. I'm wandering around in the dark all alone and he doesn't even care, I mumbled to no one in particular.

As my eyes adjusted to the darkness, I noticed someone coming toward me. It was Sir Galahad riding on his steed...his bicycle!

"Where have you been?" Steve desperately asked. "I've been riding all over the neighborhood looking for you! Do you know what time it is?"

"Oh, you do care," I said with a grin, giving him a big hug.

"What are you talking about?" he asked.

"Nothing. Let's go home." I answered.

When we got back home, I quickly erased the message on the machine before Steve could hear my reprimanding words. "Whew," I thought, "That was close."

A few days later, Steve called me from work.

" Sharon , have you listened to the answering machine lately?"

"No. Why?"

"Well, I think there's something on there you need to hear."

We hung up and I reached for my cell phone to call my home phone. The message on the answering machine went something like this.

(The voice of a Sweet Southern Belle) "Hello, you've reached the Jaynes' residence. We're unable to answer the phone right now... (Enter the voice of Corella Deville) "I was calling to let you know I'm at Catherine's. I thought you'd be worried, but apparently you don't even care because you won't pick up the phone! (Return of Sweet Southern Bell ) At the sound of the beep, leave your number and we'll get back with you as soon as possible." Beep.

"Oh, my goodness!" I screamed. "How did this happen! How many people have heard this over the past three days?"

I called the phone company and they explained that sometimes during a thunderstorm (which had occurred three days prior), lightening strikes the wires and answering machine messages get scrambled. The old message somehow got attached to the greeting.

I was mortified. It sounded like Dr. Jekyll and Mrs. Hyde reincarnate.

"Lord," I prayed. "This is so embarrassing."

"Yes, it is," He replied.

Well, He didn't really say that in so many words. It was more like this. "With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters, this should not be. Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? My brothers and sisters, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water" James 3:9-12 TNIV).

"OK Lord, I get the message." I prayed. But unfortunately, so did a lot of other people.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Sunday 3 Oct.

“Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring forth.”- Proverbs 27:1
Is that kind of the same things as don't assume things will always fall into place, b/c you planned it that way? Mike is always telling me this. Especially when it comes to money. We always lose out, when we assume it will be there..
What a great week this week. It has gone by so quickly. Today at church was fabulous! I love sitting in those pews and just listening to the Pastor speak. He is such a great teacher. We are still on the subject of "My best friend" The Holy Spirit. If we allow Him into our lives we will be so much happier.. It amazes me that some people are afraid to have the Spirit in their lives. Other's just don't b/c then they are guilty of so much. I myself want more of Him in my heart, my soul, my life. I want the Spirit to be with me always.
It's funny when I was growing up and even after I had my son, I would go to my mom and seek advice on just about everything I ever did in my life. And my mom was awesome about giving me the answers I needed or desired. After her death, It was the hardest thing in my life to have to make those decisions on my own. Then upon learning, alot of my decisions, I can still get answers to,if I just asked. I just needed to ask in the proper ways. It may not be from my mom now. but, I'm blessed enough to know that if I seek hard enough and pray about it, I still can get answers to my questions. Granted it's not as an instant, like Mom's answers. But, that is ok too. I need to learn sometime.
We took Kyla to church with us today. I was a bit leary of sending her to the nursery, b/c she has really never been anywhere like that w/o someone from her family. But it was so funny. when the lady asked Kyla her name, she replies, "in a minute." So the lady says, "ok when your ready to tell me your name, I'll be ready to hear it." LOL I put her down to the floor so she could stand. We pointed to "her" special door (they have cut out of the wall for their size) and she was OFF! Right through the door w/o even looking back to see if we were following. We never heard a peep out of her the entire service. Here Melissa worried about sticking her in pre-school for a time. Today proved her to having no issues being with other children her age. So cool!
Susan and I are going to try and up our walks to 2.5 miles this week. We've mastered 2miles w/o a hitch. So I wanted to try and increase by a half mile at a time. Hoping that will work. Oh well, we'll see what tomorrow brings...

Friday, October 1, 2010

Friday Oct 1

“Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the LORD is kept safe.”- Proverbs 29:25
Isaiah 11-13, Ephesians 4

Talk about worn out. I've been walking on a daily basis with my neighbor's mom and we have been doing 2miles a night. I just love it! I'm exhausted by midnight and I sleep an entire night away. I don't happen to wake every few hours wonderin why it's happening. It's funny but I'm so wiped that I barely can stay awake to do anything. I've not read my book for days on end. Which is different for me. alot of times i would do all my internet work and then read a few chapts before I would close the book up and make my self sleep. LOL i'm so out of it and nodding on and off I can't even type this right w/o fighting to keep myself awake.
but I will have to finish writing this tomorrow night. I can't force myself to stay awake any longer..

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

“Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God.”- John 3:20-21
Isaiah 7-8, Ephesians 2

Well I see that it's been a bit since i've posted. I've actually been really struggling to stay awake past 11 lately has been a chore. Then with Melissa and the girls coming, I've been quite busy during the days as well. No wonder I'm worn out. But it is something I wouldn't change for anything in the world. I love having them here with me. It's been fabulous.
I started walking again. It's been nice. I'm going with Mandy's mom, Susan. Sweet sweet lady. Going through a hell of a time and really needs a listening ear. So while she gets things off her chest we walk around a gorgeous duck pond. The track is half mile long and so far we've covered two miles. We just started last night. They even have a work out field with equipment, it's gravity controlled, so you work on your own weight. It's really cool..
But anyway, I wanted to check in since it's been a bit. But can promise, even though I've not blogged, I have still been faithfully reading my daily verses. Just not blogging them all..

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Saturday 25th

“My dear children, I write this to you so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have one who speaks to the Father in our defense—Jesus Christ, the Righteous One.”- 1 John 2:1
Song of Solomon 6-8, Galatians 4

Considering the fact that I slept from like 9 pm till 2:30am then I stayed up till around 6:30 when my husband calls me and says he has a blown out tire and the spare doesn't fit. Go figure. We have had nothing but problems with damn tires. Never trust Northern back yard mechanics.. They are just not as with it as southeners. First one mechanic, when replacing gas tank never put back our spare and we wound up stranded in the middle of no where in Northern Maine. And now hubby's cousin, a back yard mechanic gives him a tire and says it will fit, use it for your spare. Sure!
So I had to wake the neighbor to see if I could use her car to go and help. Mind you he is over 30 mins away. I not only had to wake her, but she had to come out and move her sister in laws car. GREAT! I finally get out there and he is struggling with one lug that is so tight on there, when we both worked at it with the lug wrench and a long pipe for leverage, we couldnt get it off. I had to drive him all the way home to get more tools and his torch to heat it up to soften it up. The torch finally worked after twenty mins of straight heat.
Then we actually get the spare on the back (even though it is over 2 inches bigger) and he drove it home, so we could drop off the neighbor's car and then drove to Walmart to purchase a new tire. The lady says, Oh it will be over an hour before it's done. GREAT! Ok, I'll do my shopping while we wait. I walked that store for a good 45 mins.
I knew I was tired because my shoulders and neck started going out on me and the black spots were appearing. The spots work it's way to complete blackness after awhile. Thank God it's only for a second or two, but it's an eerie feeling while standing up and you start to get dizzy with it. As soon as you get the full on effect of dizzy, you go back to normal. I'm told that is a common fibro thing and that it happens sitting or standing. Which I know, I've had it on the motorcycle (thank God as a passenger) and also in a swimming pool. But non the less it's a scary feeling. So I ended up going back to wait on their bench.
Finally we made it home around 12:30 and I ate lunch. Breakfast consisted of a cinnamon danish (yes I know) and a razzberry ice tea. I ate left over veg. stir fry. And headed up with my hubby for more sleep. My poor hubby was wiped after working all night.
Anyway, to make this long story come to an end, He is now headed back to work and I'm patiently, not so patiently waiting for our daughter and twin granddaughters to get here. They are like another two and half to three hours away. Even though, i would love to go and crawl under my covers with the ceiling fan on high and go to sleep till they get here. But I'm too anxious now b/c they are so close. We haven't seen them for over six months. My poor hubby had to go to work.. He won't be home until around 7 in the morning..

Friday, September 24, 2010

thurs 9/23

“So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.”- Hebrews 10:35-36
Song of Solomon 1-3, Galatians 2
I'm getting so excited. In approx. 4 hours or so Melissa, Amanda and the twins will load up in Mel's truck and head south.. YES! She is officially moving down here. OMG I'm so anxious. My heart still breaks to the idea that my son is still up there. I can't believe how much it gets to me knowing that he remains with his dad. He tells me on the phone that he is happy. But I can't imagine how. He is treated like crap. I can hear it when we talk. I can hear it in his voice. Xmas is three months away and I've got to get the money up for that child to have a plane ticket down. I cannot bare to be w/o him for much longer.
Then come February (hoping around mid winter vacation) we'll go up to pick him up when we go and get Melissa's things in storage. Then I will fly him back to be able to start school. Then we will see from there. But in the meantime it breaks my heart knowing that we are so far apart and have so long till we can be together again. But I'm told this is best, he chose it. If it's meant to be, he will move down permanently. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed and I pray daily for him..
He was so cool, his friend told him that Jw had a special gift. So he looked it up in the bible and read to me what he read. It was neat to hear him read about the gift of tongues. For I was just reading that awhile back and texting Mike at work certain verses that lifted me. It was cool that he liked the same verses.. Jw has grown so much in the church. He loves the Lord so much. His testimony has grown by leaps and bounds. He tells me tonight, "I think the Lord is telling me things Mom." I said in reply, "The Lord speaks to us all, so I truly believe he is son, Now open you heart and listen to what he has to say." I'm so proud of him..
Oh well, didn't do much today again. My hips and upper thighs are very sore again. Had hard time moving and such. I did cook dinner and get Mike's lunch. After he went to work I took a shower and then relaxed till I fell asleep. And yet again, I woke at 2:30 only to be awake yet once again.. hmmm When will this end???

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

sept 22

Ecclesiates 7:14 When times are good, be happy;
but when times are bad, consider:
God has made the one
as well as the other.
Therefore, a man cannot discover
anything about his future.
Boy does that make one sit back and think. hmm. So does that mean in all our times of trouble.. We have a learning expirience and we must learn from it.. I'd say.. Just like every trial there is a treasure.. WOW!!!
I did pretty well here and then went out of this page, I guess before saving it. So now I have nothing that i've written go figure. I haven't written Since What Saturday or Sunday. I've been so exhausted. I'm sure it's total recovery over the weekend with Barry here. We had a decent time. With the lack of sleep that I had though, it really played a huge role on these last few days. I've been wiped out the entire day. ALL I want to do is sleep. But i would refuse to do even an hour, so I could attempt to sleep at my regular times. Alot of good it did. Once I would be asleep, after a couple of hours I would wake again and have a hard time going back to sleep. Both Monday and Tuesday i have gottne out of bed at a very early time. Monday was 9am and Tuesday was 7am. So last night by the time we finished dinner and finished making Mike's lunch, i was ready to fall over. But I had to do laundry.
I finished that by ten and I nodded off and on at the computer till 11 and past out till 2am. I've been awake ever since. But I'm so ready now to go back to sleep. But I knew I had to do some catch up on my bible reading. I hate missing so many days. I'm up to weds message. I'll do that tonight. I need to close my eyes the last few hours before Mike gets home from work. Luckily he has to drop a boy off at DJJ. so that will give me to like 9 before he shows up...
I will post some pics of our weekend w/Barry and some of today from our *mike and I* ride and river stuff. So till then G'nite!

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Friday Sept 17th

“Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.”- Philippians 2:3-4

Proverbs 27-29, 2 Corinthians 10

It was a pretty good day today. I slept till five thirty pm and had to rush to get supper and Mike's lunch but it all worked out as well as me getting house vacuumed, bathrooms spotless, and floors done. Love it! My house looks good.
Barry made it here by ten tonight. It took him 8 hours to ride up from Orlando. He says to me, unless i can get a really cheap flight up, don't expect me to ride up again. LOL It took alot out of him to do this. but then at One o'clock in the morning he says, come on let's go for a ride and get something to eat. LOL So we rode down to Whataburger and got burgers and fries. I cheated a bit and got a root beer. It's a bit off the diet plan, but when the end of the day comes, it will be actually under my total caloric intake. So I'm good. Which will make up for tomorrow's intake. LOL We are going out tomorrow night for supper. Barry's treat. Go figure. How cool is that? I love it!!! above is pics of the site I use and one of the nutrition trackers. And pic of the logo..
It feels so good to have company for US this time. Since we've been down here, people has come and gone from this house. We've never had someone come from out of town to visit. It's even nicer b/c technically he's from out of state. LOL But I guess it really wouldn't count since he drove up from Orlando. lol
Oh well, good news is even with all the sleep I've gotten today, I'm still pretty beat. But in hour wise, I only got like five and half hours sleep. No wonder I'm tired. But it will work out nice for tomorrow. I won't be sleeping the day away with him here... I like that idea.
I'll get a picture of Whataburger. I've never heard of it, till we moved her. It is a really cool place. It's kind of set up like the Wendy's in Middletown. But I have to say that the burgers out rank in taste and moistness all the fast food places I've been to... NICE!!! Will definantly go back there from now on, instead of Sonic...

Friday, September 17, 2010

Thurs. 9/16

“Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children”- Ephesians 5:1
Proverbs 25-26, 2 Corinthians 9

Today has been a very laid back, relaxing, regrouping type of day. I slept til five thirty. I hate sleeping that late. Then I'm rushed to fix supper, clean that up, make Mike's lunch for work then get him out the door on time. It's a whole rushing manner. I hate it. Mike is like don't sweat it. It's not that late, you'll be fine. I'm like you don't understand. It's so hard to go to sleep and hard enough to stay asleep at times. Especially if he wakes before me. He is so voiceterous and is not quiet by no means. So I wake, sleep, wake, sleep, wake. And he wonders why I get cranky over it. lol He made it all a joke and tried to tease me the whole entire time. Oh well, it could be worse. I could be so crabby that he crabs right back. I guess he is trying to lighten the mood.
I also learned that I'm taking in alot more calories then I'm suppose to. Here I thought I was doing really well in cooking healthier and eating less. And I'm still like 500 to 1000 calories over my caloric intake. It scares me to think what I was eating before I started cutting back. Wow! Imagine that???
I also woke very sore today. My knees felt liek they were giving out on me and my hips were hurting. To think all those trips up the neighbor's stairs did me in..Another great reason to why I really need my own washer and dryer.. Between the lugging back and forth to the laundry mat or the numerous stair climbing to do it next door. It's not in the best interest for my health. lol NO really it's too much for my fibro. It causes me to take a two day break of doing hardly nothing. I hate that!!
We are getting excited. Barry (my ex's brother) is coming for a couple days. Can't wait, love him like my own brother. I'll have some good stuff to blog about with him around. Maybe we'll all go riding this weekend and show him the sites... LOVE IT!!!!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Weds. sept 15

“[Two Kinds of Wisdom] Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom.”- James 3:13
Proverbs 22-24, 2 Corinthians 8

It was a decent day today. I got to sleep in due to the fact that I didn't fall asleep till almost 8:30 this morning. So I ended up sleeping up till around 4:30. Wow! So now let's see. That's going to put a damper in our company coming this weekend. My ex-brother in law is coming up till Sunday sometime. Can't wait. Haven't seen this guy in a number of years. He is living down in Orlando, going to the Harley school down there. He's going to be a HD mechanic. AWESOME! I"m sure in the 18 months that he will be going to school, we'll probably see an awful lot of him.
I did get a load of laundry done at the neighbor's today. Did I tell you that I have the best neighbors. They are awesome! They let us use their cars when needed, just hand over the keys. When the truck was down and out, Mike used their car to go to work over night. I use their machines for wash (they won't let me pay for the usage) and to boot they alway make triple amounts of food and invite us over ALOT! They just rock!! Granted Teresa has an ancient dryer and it may take two or more hours to dry (after you let it cool down from it shutting itself off) but hey, who's complaining when it's free?
When I finally got back tonight at one thirty (am) so yes technically it's Thursday already. But who's that technical? lol Played my frontierville in Facebook for a bit. Now that I've done my reading, i need to go up and fold and put away the clothes. That would be nice.. HUH?? Lol

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Tuesday Sept 14

I guess I needed some much needed rest. I didn't actually get to sleep till like well after one o'clock then. After i did his test, I started to read my book. I got into enough to keep me awake a bit longer. Then I ended up sleeping off and on till like 2pm this afternoon. Go figure. I wonder sometimes, if when Mike woke before me and actually left the room and was pretty quiet, that I would sleep alot more soundly and take less time. But no, he wakes, lounges in the bed for like two and half hours, playing with the dogs, on the computer laughing and talking to it. Then he decides time to eat, so he goes downstairs, eats and lets the dogs out.. have no clue what else he did but after awhile he came back up stairs to get online again for a bit. then decides I'll go change the oil now. LOL he's put it off forever. After he drained it, he came back upstairs piddled around again. Then after a bit says outloud, "guess I'll go and put the new oil in now." Geesh! by now I've finally decided it's hopeless he will be back when he is done. So i start to roll over and get myself awake for him to come back.
When I finally got myself off the computer and decided i needed to go down and eat myself, it was after three thirty. After eating, I was amazingly energetic enough to sweep, mop, vaccum and clean the downstairs bathroom.Oh and I trimmed Mike's hair, shaved his neck, and did his eyebrows and mustache. NICE! No more gorrilla man.. lol then finally around six I started dinner. Not too bad except for the fact that no sooner did we finish that I had to start making Mike's lunch for work. All the while we watched dvd's of CSI Las Vegas. cool beans.
Over all it was a good day and I enjoyed it just the same. I love when I feel good and not have alot of major pains. They are far and few between in my life. So I take advantage while I can.
Todays reading is:Proverbs 19-21, 2 Corinthians 7
“And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.”- 1 John 4:16
I've written enough so I won't dwell on the reading. unless I fall in love with something.

Monday Sept 13

Ok so I got lucky enough for a second terrific day (IN A ROW) how cool is that? I woke up feeling good, the sun was out, it was quite warm. I got up and straightened my hair, put make up on and earrings to boot. Then went down to eat and I packed a lunch and decided to head to Pensacola . Our plans were to go to the Harley shop, then retreat back to one of the big parks in downtown P'cola. But we decided to take our time and go up through past Mikes work and take his directions toward the DJJ. (he still needs to learn them for himself for transports) What a great ride. I love driving down long country roads, rather then the highways. We were only on the Hwy for like five mins.
We ended up spending like 1.5 hrs in the HD shop and came out and ate our sandwiches. It was already five Pm. We decided after walking all around for so long, we were through with that. So we decided to take the Long way back home with No hwy at all. So we went down Rt90 til we hit downtown Milton and shot back across 87 toward Jay/Brewton. then we went back down Rt4 by his work to the river beach in Milton. We've always wanted to stop and walk around and check it out. So it was a perfect oppotunity for the bathroom stop. We then walked down to the river and along the shore line. How cool it was. White sand, clear water. Can't beat it. Then we decided it was much nicer then the beach. It has a kids park as well as picnic tables with grills. Pavillions if it rains. Can't beat all that.
We finally made it home by 8 and had some supper. So now I'm in the bed ready for sleep as Mike is on the computer waiting for 11pm to do his last sugar test. Then I'll be out for the count.

Sunday Sept 12

What a fabulous day, I've had. And to think it almost didn't happen.I almost didn't even get out of bed to get this great day. We ended up going to the 11 Am service today. Wow! what a rush! Pastor Mark spoke about our Best Friend, or should be our Best friend, the Holy Spirit. The whole entire meeting was so fulfilling, all you could do was let it pour over through you eyes. (does that sound weird) even Mike had tears in his eyes. That's rare, but it happens.
I learned Spirit of God in Hebrew is Ruak (sp I'm sure)and in Greek is Numa (again Sp) the definiton that we got from Faith is: Believing in what is unseen. So wouldn't having faith in the Trinity be the Same. Which makes us more blessed then even the Apostles. How cool is that? The Holy Spirit has been claimed or refered to the wind. why?
1)B.C He is unseen (he wants to be expirienced first. In John 20:29 2) He is unpredictable John 3:8 3) He is powerful! Acts 1:5-8
In Ephesians it says ... Be filled with the Spirit.
Benifits of the spirit 1)rest Isaiah 63:14 2) Direction Romans 8:26,27 3) Freedom Romans 8:9 9) Power! Corinthians 2:4,5 5) Ministry in Acts.. When filled w/ the Spirit ) is was and still is for ministry.
Luke 4:18,19
My thoughts to this is, To be filled with the Spirit comes with many responsibilities but with many many blessings. Like Pastor Mark said if you put all your problems, faults, sins, desires in to the Lord's hands and become filled with the Spirit_ HE will take care of you and see you through, to change all your "trials in to Treasures" (that wasn't his words, they are Anne Bosman's, but when P. Mark said his phrase all I could think of was Sis B's and missed his. But it's all the same) This seems like the HARDEST thing in the world to do. It's my prayer to be filled with the spirit. So we may put all our trials to the Lord and let Him guide us in the handling and allow us to have the Holy Spirit as our best friend.
Now after getting home and eating our lunch and taking a much needed nap with Mike all snuggled up. We woke and spent our evening together talking and enjoying each other for the remainder of the night till he slept . I then at 1:30 in the morning started reading my book till I fell asleep. Too tired to concentrate on scripture after all that. Saved my scripture reading for Monday to do double.
Thank you Father for the most glorious day.. It's been such a long time since I've had one that good.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Sat 9/11

“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!”- Philippians 4:4
Proverbs 10-12, 2 Corinthians 4

Prov.10:25 When the storm has swept by, the wicked are gone,
but the righteous stand firm forever.
Makes one really want to be the best they can be to prevent such actions.
Prov 11:21 Be sure of this: The wicked will not go unpunished,
but those who are righteous will go free.
2Corinthians 4 is so powerful... Goodness, it's so much in that chapt that just tells it like it is. It's so much to cut and paste everything. One must literally read it for themselves. It's so funny how you get into reading things, that you've heard all your life and then out of the blue it just bowls you right over and you just are like, "WoW! That is just awesome!"
but this indeed winds it up to the MAX:
Cor 4:16Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
It's a blessing to know what ever I'm feeling today, yesterday or tomorrow, on the inside I'm getting better and better and better. b/c what is unseen (unfelt I like to think it) is ETERNAL!
Beautiful. Now as for this being Sept. 11th and the remembrance of those lives that were lost in the bombings, we take note that I'm sure the Lord has blessed them and the wicked will have their time also. B/c God is a JUST GOD!!!

Friday, September 10, 2010

Fri Sept 10

“[A song of ascents.] I lift up my eyes to the hills— where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.”- Psalm 121:1-2
Proverbs 8-9, 2 Corinthians 3
Well today went well with out a hitch. Needless to say I think I made it asleep around 6 this morning and by nine, I was awake again when Mike got home. So sometime after ten or so I finally made my way up and went to the bank got the money out, paid off loan and then went to the thrift shop and bought 7 books for $.74 I decided if I have to pinch my pennies tight for the rest of the month, then I need to shop as cheap as I can. So instead of $5 a week, I went less then a dollar for two weeks. So now I can spend a bit more on groceries and cleaning supplies. Not bad.
Tomorrow, we have to Mike's appt for 9. I'm really worried what that appt is going to entail. I know that his A1C will be horrible. So as I said last night, I know that he will get another lecture and then hopefully she will do alot of changes for him to follow. Then around 11 we get Mel's money to her and then I have to shop for groceries and cleaning supplies. Fun! SUre!!! Oh well. But with very little sleep this morning and a couple hours this afternoon, I'm so ready to go to bed now. It amazes me that it's long before normal time. It's not even 2am. Go figure. Awesome...

Thurs. Sept 9

“Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.”- Isaiah 46:4 Isn't that a real blessing to know, no matter what we look like He will carry us, He will sustain us, rescue. Amen. For if I keep going the way I am, rescuing will definitely be my need. (said in jest but shouldn't)
Proverbs 6-7, 2 Corinthians 2

Well I'm not sure if my answered prayer is an answered prayer for Melissa. But She isn't getting a trailer to tow behind the truck now. Back a couple years ago they had issues with Firestone tires and such on Ford Explorers and I'm imagining other issues with the truck. B/c Uhaul will not rent in good standing to her b/c of that reason. So instead she is buying a big $20 thing to bungee cord on top of the truck that will zip in all the clothes and some other things on the roof of the truck. Then what ever else she can fit inside the truck she will bring down. Anything else she is sticking inside a storage unit and will then go up mid February to rent a Uhaul truck or what ever and drive it back down that way.
This helps so much. We are able to pay off the remaining of the bills for the month of September, get the brakes for the truck and still have enough money for gas and food. Can't beat that. No more worrying where it was all going to be coming from. Thank you Lord for answering my prayer. What Melissa needs she can always get down here, like we did. It's a slow process but it works. We've been here four months and we have everything now, except for a washer and dryer. And I'm going looking for that in the next couple of weeks also. With That many extra ppl here and what it takes for me to lug it all to the mat and back and what not, I'd rather just have one here and get it over with. So will have to really scout around.
Anyway, that's about all that is new around here. Not a whole lot. Tomorrow is payday so I'll be pretty busy. Have to go to bank, payday loan place. And walmart. that's about it until Saturday, I'll have more running around to do. Oh well. Could be worse.
Hey you would be so proud of me. I made steak on the Foreman, egg noodles with seasonings and shredded cheese, and beats for supper. I ate a piece of steak the size of a deck and half of cards (getting there lol) a 1/2 cup of noodles, and 1/4 cup beats. I used the last of the White gravy to go with it and only put like 1/8 of a cup on meat and noodles. Not like I usually just load the things. I'm proud of myself. Mike only had one plate also. How cool is that? Then later I had a peanut butter and fluff on whole wheat bread with skim milk, and last meal of the night I had three small celery sticks with lite pbutter on them, and one cup of my berry berry yogurt delights. The entire day I only had my glass of milk and ice water. No tea, no coffee, nothing.. just that Imagine that. Woo hoo!!!

Thursday, September 9, 2010

weds 9/8/10

“Teach the older men to be temperate, worthy of respect, self-controlled, and sound in faith, in love and in endurance.”- Titus 2:2
Proverbs 3-5, 2 Corinthians 1
1 My son, do not forget my teaching, but keep my commands in your heart, 2 for they will prolong your life many years and bring you prosperity.

Well last night after I had awakened and stayed awake till like five AM, like now it's almost 4:30. Anyway, I text Mike letting him know that I had woke up and he text back to tell me that he was hoping I would wake and text him. I thought, well why? Anyway he comes back and says," I wanted to tell you that I really do love you and I'm so glad that you are in my life. I was really scared today at the Dr's and I'm just glad that you are around to be with me." I told him and reassured him how much I truly love him and how much I worry about his over all health and reasons being why I try to come down on him with his Non-aggressive actions in taking care of his diabetic self. i told him how much I worry if he will be around for a time. How much i would hate to see him gone. What would I do w/o him. He replied with how he wonders what Melissa and I would do w/o him. Granted we would do like any other family would do and sadly carry on. But being that I've only been with him for ten years and only been happy for probably five of those years. I am going to be greedy and desire more time. He is only 49 years old. He needs to step up and take serious aggressive action in taking care of himself and get his buns in gear. Come on now. If a Dr says, "you need to test your sugar daily, if not more then once daily." Then Damn it.. Test!!! If they say, "only eat according to a diabetic diet and lose weight." Then Damn it.. Do it!!! it's the ONLY way to stay alive, then by all means do it. It just seems he is good for so long, then he falls right back in the same groove. It's so much easier i guess to do it the wrong way , then it is to do it the correct way..
Granted I have no room to talk. If I maintained a Fibromyagic diet, I would feel better more days then I feel worse. If I took medications like I was suppose to, I would feel better then I do. So in turn we are both slowly killing ourselves and we need to step up and take action to change it. And texting With him last night, I told him that you not only need it, but WE both need it. And we need to see to it, that we do it and stick with it. Simple as that. Even though, we all know it's not simple, just how it is...
But considering Mike is NOT a vocal affectionate type of guy. And alot of times he will not come out and say with his mouth, "I love you" he does every once in awhile come out in a text and tell me. And let me tell you, it's just as awesome seeing it in print as it is hearing it come out of his mouth. Sometimes better.
So We are going to struggle the best we can till the end of the month to eat accordingly. But come next month, we should have no excuses to how we eat.. We need to make sure we do our best in keeping up with a proper diet and exercise the best we can. Let's get the BP down, the weight down, and all his numbers of his sugar counts down down down. Let's live another 15+ 5 years together and be happy.. I will be happy with longer. but pray for that at least.. But need to take it one day at a time anyway..
Please if you read this, pray for us. Pray that we can have the strength and efforts to correct our wrongs and build on our rights and get better/ healthier. Thank you....

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Tues Sept. 7th

“We proclaim him, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so that we may present everyone perfect in Christ.”- Colossians 1:28

I wasn't going to post today. But for the daily scripture, I happened to like what it said, so I figured while I'm here. I did do the reading but nothing really jumped out at me so I left it alone.
Then I figured while I'm here might as well tell you about the Hell of a day that I have had. Before I fall back asleep. Anyway, I've been syked about today for just about four days. Today was the day that Mike and I finally get to go see a new Dr here in Crestview. Mike gets to get his A1C as well as his med scripts refilled. I myself, finally get up the nerve to know that I'm not Super woman and it's time to stop the daily fight of how much pain can I stand till I drop. Ok so now you get the picture.
I get so worked up about going that I get hardly any sleep what so ever over the whole thing, b/c I guess I'm very nervous if this Dr is knowledgeable about Fibromyalgia to begin with. Alot of them are or just go with the mainstream and hand out meds and deal with it that way. So we get there and fill out all our information on a new computer clip typd board. Mind you I did for both of us. God forbid Mike does it on his own. Takes me all but maybe a half hour to get it all done. I'm squirming back and forth in the this uncomfy chair and really starting to get antsy b/c I'm in so much pain. Only to find out that Mike's insurance STILL hasn't put me on the policy (that should have taken effect like two months ago and didn't) So either I have to pay $250 up front and get re-embursed or not be seen. Guess what, I don't get seen.
Then, they ask for payment up front. I give Mike a check and five mins later they call him back and say, "we can't take your check. The bank declined it." OH REALLY! Ok now why?? Last I checked I have over draft and so if I didn't even have the funds in there, I know it should be covered.. Is it not just Walmart that does this to me? So I get angry and leave Mike there and drive to the bank to cash Jason's check he gave me for his weekly rent. Teller asks me, "Mrs. St. Jean are you able to bring your acct. current today?" I'm like, " really, I didn't know it was behind. Which last I checked two days ago, there was some money in there. Maybe under $20 but cash in there. How much in the negative am I?" She returns, " $49." I say, " Umm not really I just left my husband at the Dr's office adn they will not see him unless we give them $30 upfront. He gets his direct deposit Friday, it will bring it current then." She's good with that and cashes the check.
So back to the Dr's I go, give the receptionist the cash this time and finally another half hour they call Mike in and ONLY Mike. I'm not allowed to go into the office w/o him. Mind you since his MRSA episode and major surgery, I've gone to EVERY appt with him and spoken to the Dr's myself about his medical condition and resonsiblities adn they tell me, NO you may not go in with him." This sets Mike in a mood that he become flipant. He's not back there 10 mins and she comes back and says, " Your assistance is needed please." I just laughed and said, I figured as much.
I get back there and I have to name off the list of meds and doses he takes b/c the computer clip board didn't even record it. Then she tells me that his BP is sky rocketed and he keeps up with what he is doing it can cause him a heart attack or stroke. Then proceeds to ask him what his sugars have been. I chuckled and said, "you won't get that answer b/c he doesn't test." A man who is almost 50 years old and refuses to prick his finger b/c it hurts. OK here comes the lecture. And she gave it to him but not a firm as I was hoping. She then proceeds to tell him that he needs bloodwork done for his A1C and cholesteral levels. He gets all hyped up b/c he doesn't like the idea that the Dr does her own bloodwork in the office itself. Give me a break! I think it's better that way. So of course she comes out with this needle that is like bigger then a mattress needle (I pray he doesn't look at it lol) and she proceeds to stick it in his arm on the inside of his elbow. His vein collapsed upon entry. So now she has to move it around and refind another spot. So he is just fidgeting in his seat and trying to be respectful at the same time. After taking three vials of blood, she says, " let's test your BP again and see if it's still up there." I shake my head and roll my eyes. Ok lady, you've insulted him, you've told him at almost 50 he needs to be mature enough to handle his own medical issues and know everything and then you (in his eyes) muttelated him to get blood. Yeh this will be good!
As she retakes it, she says, " it's still high. I'm going to give you a pill to take and I want you to go and sit in the waiting area for about ten mins an I'll check it again. Your not leaving here until I know it's safe. Alrighty then. I'm so worked up by now, worried what he will say or do out in the waiting room. I'm already totally upset over the insurance issue with me to begin with. His co pay was suppose to be ONLY $10-$15. And b/c they didn't update the way they were suppose to it doubled. I took Mike's gas money for work to pay the extra. Go figure. Worry about that later.
So finally she calls him back in and tells him, "I want you to start these new pills that are especially for diabetics, and high blood pressure. Then, I want you back here Saturday morning at 9Am to check it again with the new meds." Then she sticks her head out the door to me and gives me the schedule on taking his new pills and tells me his next appt time. Great another $30.
By now, my body is shot, I'm shaking and very out of it and he's beyond able to drive. HA! so I say Ok, I take us straight home and I'm done.. I get home and stretch out on the couch and want to just break down and cry. The pain has over taken me and nothing else I can do but suck it up. Then of course, the body temp drops due the new onset flare up and I start to shiver. I wrap in the blanket and tell Mike, you have to find something to eat,I am goign to lay for as long as I can stand it. I was DONE!!!
Needless to say, he did fine. He is good at fending for himself. I did end up getting up b/c after too long you have to. So I made his lunch for work and he went upstairs to get the extra stuff he puts in his lunch and bring it down. So that was a huge help. Then right after he left for work I came up and took one of my "borrowed pain pills" (shouldnt say borrowed she actually gave them to me.. Thank Goodness) and I went on facebook till I fell asleep. When i rolled into a trigger spot I woke up and rubbed my face and realized I still had my makeup on. so off that had to come and been doing this ever since.
But since I'm forcing to keep my eye lids open. I'm going to close up say good night to my hubby at work and I'm going to go back to sleep. G'nite...

Monday, September 6, 2010

Sun/mon labor day 2010

Well another short lived day. I'm sure by now one would think of me a broken rec'd. I put in about pain or not to know when I look back. Another very disappointed day for not making it to church either:/ I hate not making it to church. It's so unfair!!! I enjoy everything about it, the music, the teachings, the people. It's like my most inspired part of the week to make me feel so blessed. Then when I don't make it, I feel an emptiness w/o it..
We finally got out of bed around 4 today. I was so sore in my shoulders, blades and neck. I hated it. Tuesday is coming, just not fast enough. I need a pain pill to over power the pain. Not just take a small edge off. I got a nice pork chop dinner with mashed potatoes, peas and a nice white gravy from scratch. I think I impressed Mike. I never make anything from scratch. Have to do that more often. lol
Went next door around 7 to get my clothes. They were still wet in the dryer so I finished them up. Then went back at ten of 8 and put in another load. My Goodness it took till One thirty to get them done. Their lovely dryer is on it's last leg. But finally I finished got them home, now I must get up stairs and fold and put away both loads. That's the part I hate the most! I can wash and dry all day. But hate putting them away. Wonder why..... Oh well, HAPPY LABOR DAY!!!

“Jesus replied, "If anyone loves me, he will obey my teaching. My Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him.”- John 14:23 That's pretty simple I'd say. Wouldn't you??
Psalm 148-150, 1 Corinthians 15:29-58

148:13 Let them praise the name of the LORD,
for his name alone is exalted;
his splendor is above the earth and the heavens. That's just awesome!
1 Corinthians 15
55"Where, O death, is your victory?
Where, O death, is your sting?"[e] 56The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. 57But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

58Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.
Imagine not having the blessings of our Lord. Imagine feeling the sting of death. Umm NO THANKs! I'm so grateful for the knowledge of doing and living for our LOrd..

Saturday, September 4, 2010

sat/sun 4th sept script./personal

“Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”- Matthew 28:18-20
Psalm 146-147, 1 Corinthians 15:1-28

1 Praise the LORD. [a]
Praise the LORD, O my soul.

2 I will praise the LORD all my life;
I will sing praise to my God as long as I live.

Today was such a nice day. I got to spend some quality time with my love and we got to go out to eat together before he had to come home and get ready for work. It was so nice. And to think the entire days spent with him, I didn't have alot of pain and I didn't have a headache at all. I just love it! It was so special..I JUST LOVE HIM!!! Everyday he gives me more reasons why I love him.
Being that Mike is a bean buster. He loves to bust beans to see what kind of attention he will get from it. One of the things he jokes about is "not being married" or he'll say, I'm not married today.. He puts things on his FB page about flirting.. He is a major flirt with anyone. That is just him, just like I flirt too. Everyone knows it's all just in fun. It is put out there that we are married and that it's all innocent. Anyway, he puts on his page, that his relationship is complicated due to blondes, brunettes, and red heads. People are like, aren't you married?? LOL he's like yes and what does that have to do with anything. LOL He knows I know what he put, he knows that it's all in jest. Now he puts on there, besides the complicated part. He puts, " Its hard to say that I'm married when I'm in the middle of such a long mid life crisis." I'm not sure if that is verbatim but anyway, I thought, WOW! I took a step up in the world. It used to be, I'm not married, I don't want to be married then it went into a huge joke of it, now he graduated or I did not sure which one, to he knows he is married it's just hard to admit when he is in such crisis. LOL And he just sits back and waits for people to make comments and to see what he says. He's such a nutcase!!!
I'm so glad that I know for a fact that he loves me with all of his heart and his actions are loud and clear. B/c if I had any doubts about us, I would really wonder myself if he was kidding or not. But in the past two years we have worked very hard to were we are today and I know that he wouldn't live with out me. He has proven that one too many times. But it is his gestures and his actions and little tid bits that he tells me through the days that I fall for him more and more each time. You just can't beat it.. That's why I love him sooo much. I actually appreciate his sense of humor. Some times it's off color. But I take the good with the bad and roll with it..

Friday, September 3, 2010

Friday/sat 3rd/4th personal

Today was a tough one. I did very little yesterday. But still woke with my shoulder blades a mess and my head and neck still hurting. I'm so Glad that it's almost Tuesday and I'll be going to the Dr's for that appt. I really am not leaving until they give me something for all these issues. I'm so done.. I'm not a super woman and I just can't with stand it any longer. So will have to see what the weekend brings. Who knows. I didn't do much but cook an easy supper and make Mike's lunch. That was it.. I lounged around outside while Mike raked the yard, front and back. That was it. got on FB for a bit,played Frontierville and now reading and blogging. Now i'm ready for bed.. Good night all...

scripture of day/ daily for sept3/4

“What you heard from me, keep as the pattern of sound teaching, with faith and love in Christ Jesus. Guard the good deposit that was entrusted to you—guard it with the help of the Holy Spirit who lives in us.”- 2 Timothy 1:13-14
Psalm 143-145, 1 Corinthians 14:21-40

Psalms are prayers to the Lord for hearing one's prayers and asking for protections. And Corinthians speaks more about talking in tongues and allowing it and such.
Sorry it's a tough night tonight with my neck and back hurting that I am really not that much into it, but needed to make sure I did the reading. There really wasn't alot that jumped out at me for now except one part in 1 Corin. 14:33 "For God is not a God of disorder but of peace. As in all the congregations of the saints, 34women should remain silent in the churches. They are not allowed to speak, but must be in submission, as the Law says. 35If they want to inquire about something, they should ask their own husbands at home; for it is disgraceful for a woman to speak in the church. " As you read further it goes back down into not forbiding speaking in tongues.. Never acknowledges the idea of anything that has to do with women. I'm so lost.. Is this true or was it just that way back in the days the bible was written?

thurs/fri 2sept personal note

Today started out to being a very painful one. Oh I had such back and neck pains. NO headache, which is nice though. But I finally crawled out of bed and drug myself to the shower. Afterward, I came down and took some excedrin to take some edge-ness off. B/c I won't take a Neurontine during the day time, right now. I made a dr's appt with a new dr down here in Crestview. I hope that Mike likes this dr. I hate chasing down dr's for him. I try and tell him not everyone is Franky and no one is as easy as he is. So I hope he goes in with an open mind. For me though, I'm really pushing that I need something to help with these flares that I'm having more and more each time. And of course, with each flare, the pain seems to radiate more and feel worse. Great! But anyway, Tuesday at One we go.
Mike and I carried up the small tv cabinet to organize the towels and what not in our room. I took out the towels we use out of the hall bathroom. Now that not only Jason and Sam is using it, but come the end of the month, Melissa and the girls will be using it also.. so needed to have our own private stuff for our bathroom. I later on went back in the garage and took out a bedroom tote and a few bags of coats and such. So slowly but surely making room in the garage for more storage to go in. We are putting Jason and Sam in the smaller room (really the office) and then Melissa will take the bigger spare room for her and both girls. So until Sam and Jason get their own place she will have to manage or sleep on the couch. We'll see. But after twenty some odd years, I'm NOT giving up my master bedroom for anyone. Being that Mike and I are the ones paying the most in the rent and bills, we deserve the bigger room with the private bathroom. I deserve that much. All my life I've given up my bed or my room for others. I've slept on couches, I've made my room in the living room, one too many times.. so I think it's our turn this time...I really do.
So after about three trips up the stairs with things. I was done. Figured I did enough for one night. I refuse to over do anything tonight and make myself hurt more then I already do.. So after i was done with that, I wrote and old friend of my mom's and copied (typed a copy) of her memorium that Dad's group made up for him. So she could see what mom has done in the last years of her life.. Then I copied and pasted a portion of it for my brother Robert so he can see also. Thought they would like that... Lastly, I did my bible readings for the days and put my personal note on it.. So now that my hands and fingers have typed for like four hours tonight. I think I'm done and ready to go up to my bed and read more of my NOra Roberts book.. So till TOMorrow night. NITERS!!!!

thurs/fri 2sept

“This is what the LORD says— your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: "I am the LORD your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go.”- Isaiah 48:17
All I can say to this one is AMEN!! With a chuckle behind it. I spent all my life in looking to my mom for the directions in my life that I should take. so when HF took her from us to be with him, it was the most heartbreaking thing I thought I could endure. Mind you I spent a good portion of my night copying her memorium from a family member. Yet thinking again how Robert S. Wood put in his letter how she was super mom to every one she came in contact with. Now reading this tonight is just a manifestation that it's the Lord that directs us. So being intuned to his Holy Spirit will get me there. Thank goodness, I don't do alot with consulting Him in my prayers first...
Psalm 140-142, 1 Corinthians 14:1-20

Corinthians 14
Gifts of Prophecy and Tongues
1Follow the way of love and eagerly desire spiritual gifts, especially the gift of prophecy. 2For anyone who speaks in a tongue[a] does not speak to men but to God. Indeed, no one understands him; he utters mysteries with his spirit.[b] 3But everyone who prophesies speaks to men for their strengthening, encouragement and comfort. 4He who speaks in a tongue edifies himself, but he who prophesies edifies the church. 5I would like every one of you to speak in tongues,[c] but I would rather have you prophesy. He who prophesies is greater than one who speaks in tongues,[d] unless he interprets, so that the church may be edified.
I am still amazed of those who do this.. It is the most honor to be able to listen to one who speaks in tongue. It is even more so of an honor to know that what they are saying is for the Lord to hear and to understand what they are speaking. I love to listen to someone in prayer to our Father and start speaking in tongue. It just send shivers up my spine to listen...

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Wed/ thurs 1st personal

Today was a bit better then yesterday. I did learn something tonight. I learned that there is a main muscle that runs in the back lower part of my neck that runs right up to the top of my skull. This is the place where it's effected so much in making me have such headaches. It's a fibro trigger point.. I'm sure that the tightness in my bra straps and the weight of my breast pulling on the straps and the wrong size of the bra fit, has alot to do with the trigger point and the pains and headaches I'm having. That is why when at night I take the bra off and I relax that muscle, it starts to feel better till I put the bra back on.. Geez! makes alot of sense. So tell me, where can I find the money to buy bras that actually fit and not have the weight of my bust pull down on my shoulders to effect the trigger points in my neck to solve all this?? Ha??? GEEZ!
I got to finally make it to Walmart today and get the rest of the things we needed. So now we are like down to our last twenty dollars for milk and cream and suffer the rest of the two weeks for anything else, I guess. B/c the water bill came in and will have to use Jason's weekly rent money to pay for that. Seeing as it went up another $2o some odd dollars. So what we have in that closet is what we live on for the next two weeks, I guess. I'm so glad that I got the rent, electric, internet and phone paid for on this check.. Thank Goodness. b/c it's about it get even tighter come the end of the month.. If we can struggle through the month of September, we should be all good come October. Then we can sail the rest of the year and have a decent Xmas. I hope, along with a plane ticket for my son to come too. So everyone pray that it all work out for us...

wed/thurs 9/1

“The earth is filled with your love, O LORD; teach me your decrees.”- Psalm 119:64
Psalm 137-139, 1 Corinthians 13
Psalm 138

1 I will praise you, O LORD, with all my heart;
before the "gods" I will sing your praise
3 When I called, you answered me;
8 The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me;
your love, O LORD, endures forever—
do not abandon the works of your hands. (I love this. How great is the knowledge of all that?)
Psalm 139
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
1 O LORD, you have searched meand you know me. 2 You know when I sit and when rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. 3 You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. 4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD. 5 You hem me in—behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me. 6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. 7 Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? 8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there. 9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast. 11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me," 12 even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. 13 For you created my inmost being;you knit me together in my mother's womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, 16 your eyes saw my unformed body.All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. 17 How precious to [b] me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! 18 Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you. 19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God! Away from me, you bloodthirsty men! 20 They speak of you with evil intent;your adversaries misuse your name. 21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD, and abhor those who rise up against you? 22 I have nothing but hatred for them; I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. 24 See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
I left all of this in, b/c it was only good in full. everything was a tug at the heart strings. Not just one part of it... So I had to..

1 Corinthians 13 (I really like this scripture alot)
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8. Love NEVER fails. 13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
Ok so when it talks about speaking in tongues.. Is it really speaking in Hebrew? Is that what the Pastor's wife speaks when she is talking in tongue?? WOW How awesome is that!!!

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Tues/wed blog can you believe it's Sept 1st??

Well today wasn't a complete wash out. I finally managed to get my buns up and out of bed by 1pm. Seeing as I didn't fall asleep till well after three or so. I listened to Mike lay next to me (his only night off this week) quietly sleeping, inhaling, exhaling, doing it the cute way that I giggle at everytime I watch him. Every once in awhile you would hear a gurgle, a sigh or a murmurring and even a few moans. It amazes me how entertaining it can actually be to watch a man sleep. He actually has expressions at times on his face just as well. Makes you wonder if he is dreaming or just thinking in his sleep. Who knows. but as he laid there content and out like a light, I was awake trying to get the medication to kick in and take the pains of my right leg, my back and my head to go away. I did all I could do online and wasn't in the mood to getting back on and doing any more, so I choose to read and read and read.. By three o'clock my head hurt enough to know, it's time to stop reading before you get a migrane. So I closed the book, went to the bathroom and curled up against Mike and as he put his arm around me and pulled me further in, I started relaxing enough to actually start to fall asleep.I was really finally ready. And people ask me why I stay up all night and sleep all day.. Well when you have such a great hubby that loves snuggling with you, you too will wait to fall asleep for it too, instead of sleeping alone..
So anyway, he woke up and went downstairs sometime around 11 he said. I never even heard him get up. I was finally OUT... Around 1 I heard Sam downstairs talking to him (that's his cousin's girlfriend)and laughing. I looked at the clock and was like WOw! it's that late?? Guess I better get up. I've got to get to Walmart and get what we need. Ha! That didn't last. I felt soo bad looking at our one dog Haylee bite and itch again. Knowing that we spent all the money we could and only had enough to get the rest of the stuff we apsolutely need at Walmart. So I plundered myself back up the stairs, grabbed my haircutting scissors and dog comb and towel, and back down again. I sat on the floor (big mistake) and commenced on giving this poor baby a very short haircut. Taking all the matts she had made in the past month in her hair from licking, biting and sucking on her itchy skin.. approx an hour and half later, I finished and went to stand up and barely could. My poor back was ON FIRE! So I just kind of rolled myself to the chair, propped my feet up and sat there for approx a half hour before I could move again. But poor Haylee needed that bath, badly.. So up I went and gave it to her.. Now not only my back is gone but my legs are shot too.. So when I was done, back to the chair i went for another half hour before I started dinner. I managed to get dinner done and cleaned up and got Mike's lunch made for work. Now I know Mike would have probably fended for himself for dinner if I begged him enough and he would of thrown something in his lunch for tonight. But I love doing this for him. this is my way of showing him the love and appreciation that i have for him. This is the man that works for us and supports us. My measlely SSDI check doesn't even cover the full rent. So I'm thankful that he does what he does. so I want to be able to show that by doing what I do for him. And trust me if i gave that man scissors and said, here you cut her hair.. OH my word LOL Granted she isn't perfect by NO Means, from me doing it.. but at least 90% of her hair is close to one length. If he did it.. NOPE not even close.. lol So I have to do it.. lol
But the good news is after he leaves for work, I get what I need for the upstairs and I pack it in for the night. I turn on the heating pad and hit the bedroom and relax for the remaining of the night till I'm ready to go to sleep. I've not fully waited for Mike to make it home from work for a few weeks now. Due to the fibro. my sleep patterns alternate alot. With each flare up, is when it switches to different times. So which ever works.. At least I get a few hours with him.. I'm still not crawling out when he is coming in.. which is nice..
Anyway, that is my day.. On the good news, I got to talk to Jw tonight. he was just coming out of youth group. I was so happy to hear his voice. It's been a few days since last we spoke. Man I miss him with every fiber of my being. I want him back with me soooo badly.. I can't stand it. WE are hoping and praying very hard that next summer that he will want to come and live with us. Hopefully coming down for Xmas, spring break (we hope we can afford it) and obviously summer vacation. But for the previous two that he falls in love enough to tell his father, come summer I just want to stay with my mom.. But for really good news, melissa has set it up with just about everyone that she is moving down come the end of next month. WE are so excited to at least get our daughter and granddaughters coming.. That will be a step in the right direction... So thank the good LORD for that one.. We've prayed so much for these. He is listening and slowly answering our prayers...

Tues/wed word

“Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.”- Proverbs 22:6
I agree. If you raise your child in the way of the Lord, He will follow. Granted it may not always be in the same direction your in. But they will be heading to the same destination. I can deffinantly vouch for that.
Psalm 135-136, 1 Corinthians 12
(for those of you that do read my bible blogging. I figure I write so much as it is, that I don't put in everything that i've read. I like to just include what I feel in my heart that has stood out to me or moved me. Then if needed I go from there and write what I feel. Other times I will just leave it alone)
1 Praise the LORD. [a]
Praise the name of the LORD;
praise him, you servants of the LORD
Psalm 136
1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good.
His love endures forever.
26 Give thanks to the God of heaven.
His love endures forever.
1 Corinthians 12
Spiritual Gifts
12The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ. 13For we were all baptized by[c] one Spirit into one body—whether Jews or Greeks, slave or free—and we were all given the one Spirit to drink.
27Now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it. 28And in the church God has appointed first of all apostles, second prophets, third teachers, then workers of miracles, also those having gifts of healing, those able to help others, those with gifts of administration, and those speaking in different kinds of tongues. 29Are all apostles? Are all prophets? Are all teachers? Do all work miracles? 30Do all have gifts of healing? Do all speak in tongues[d]? Do all interpret? 31But eagerly desire[e] the greater gifts.
And now I will show you the most excellent way. ((all I could say when done here was WOW!!! Now that is a gift!!!
My other favorite site to read on a daily basis is Girlfriends in God. They also give a daily scripture and then a daily devotional.. This is todays scripture. I just love it..
Yes, Jesus Loves Me!

Mary Southerland

Today's Truth
Matthew 19:14 "Jesus said, ‘Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these. ‘"
How awesome is that?? Our Children are just as important as we are, if not even more so.. thank You!!!

Monday personal note

We finally ventured to Pensacola Harley Davidson today. What a magnificent store that is. Mind you we've gone to Fort Walton Beach a couple times, but this place is nothing compared to Pensacola. We fell in love with the shop and above all the people. Awesome!!! They are so friendly, so informative, and like read your mind and let you know what your thinking. How cool is that.. It's a bit further of a ride the Ft Walton bch but so much more worth it. I can't wait to go back again.
We decided that since it was almost six o'clock that we better get something in Mike's belly. Being a diabetic, you don't want to wait too long to eat. So we found out that further down the road, just past the hwy entrance was a Ryan's buffet.. We like that place due to the prices.. Where can you pay $9.79 for all you can eat and have banana pudding w/ nilla wafers n banana chunks.. *dessert* You have to love it. We can't even be that cheap at the local Sonic.. Geez! Not with Mike's appitite. LOL So in we went and found that it was so much more appealing, appatizing and over all just down right better then the Crestview Ryan's. Unreal..
After that I drove us home and we ended up going to the neighbors for some social time and hanging with good friends. Gotta love it. And of all things they fed us again. This was a really cool salad with steak strips in it. Out of this world. Granted we didn't eat a whole lot since we were full. But enjoy every bite of it. They even loaded up a tubberware full for tomorrow. I mean how awesome is that. We just love them guys. we then just sat on their couch and listened to them playing rock band for a couple sets and then decided it was time to come home. I really needed to fold and put away the clothes from going to the mat the other day.. lol.. I never do that.. usually i come right home and do it.. I've hurting so badly.. Oh well, it's done now.
that's about it for now. or should say, that's enough for now. lol I surely have my dad's talent of talking.. lol Sorry dad I love you with all my heart.. <3 <3


verse of the day

“Come, let us bow down in worship, let us kneel before the LORD our Maker; for he is our God and we are the people of his pasture, the flock under his care. Today, if you hear his voice,”- Psalm 95:6-7
It does go on further to say basically if you harden your hearts and don't head His word, it states in verse 11 So I swear in My wrath, "they shall not enter My rest."
Well can't get any clearer then that. I mean you either listen to the teaching and obey His commandments or you cannot return to the Heavenly kingdom...
Psalm 132-134, 1 Corinthians 11:17-34

Psalm 134
A song of ascents.
1 Praise the LORD, all you servants of the LORD
who minister by night in the house of the LORD.

2 Lift up your hands in the sanctuary
and praise the LORD.

3 May the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth,
bless you from Zion.

I just like this one. I love the idea of lifting your hands in the sanctuary and praising the Lord. At first noticing and doing were so awkward. But truth be told, I can feel the reasoning of it. My heart fills with the Joy of knowing that I"m doing it for the Lord. Whether it be in sharing a prayer to a fellow member or to praising to the Lord.. It's just awesome..

In my Girlfriends in God site this is their verse of the day
Today's Truth
Isaiah 26:3-4 (ICB) "You, Lord, give true peace. You give peace to those who depend on you. You give peace to those who trust you. So, trust the Lord always. Trust the Lord because he is our Rock forever."
I know when I am at my wits end and I'm down and out to place all my "issues" in the Lord and he will handle them as he sees fit. Since we've moved down to Fla our biggest issues were financial problems. I would make statements to the Lord, " why did I pray so much before we moved, to come down to this. when I prayed your reassured me that this was the right thing, up and leave your children and grandchildren and go south to a place you've never seen or been and to stay with a woman that you've only known on the computer. Mike only known of her from almost 20 years ago. But on blind faith we packed up the moving truck, put our truck on a dolly and drove for three days *because we were asked to take as long as we could* Only to get there to be told we had three months to get out. Mike had no job, was on TDI, me collecting my SSDI and we were struggling. But You tell us to move on down, and have faith." We did find a great church, Mike returned working for Eckerd Youth, he did lose money in pay, but we figured, cost of living down her is cheaper. HMMF sure. in some ways, but in others no... But slowly having the trust in the Lord and knowing that our treasure is coming with in the struggle and trials that we've been through. One prayer has been answered. Melissa is suppose to move down the end of Sept. That will leave Jw. We are having him come for Xmas. In hopes that he falls in love and wishes to come back spring break *possibly* then back for summer vacation and praying that he wants to come for good. Praying that he falls in love with the idea that this is the place he needs to be. I miss my family sooo much!!! But I keep praying that it will all work out one day.. And beg for patience along the way..