Sunday, October 31, 2010

30 days of Thankful Nov 1

Colossians 4:1 Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful.
What is real Thanksgiving? It is Gratitude, an attitude of being thankful for what He has done for me! When we fully recognize that our greatest problem has been solved, our indebtedness of sin, we can feel and know gratitude and thus honor God, by leading a life of response to Who and what...
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Today being the first day of November starts the first and foremost something that I'm very thankful for. In all the midst of things that I'm worried about and stress over through the month or complain about of what we don't have, I do have so many things I'm thankful for. So I chose to jump on board with other friends of mine to do the 30 days of thankful and be able to put into writing and maybe see that the glories in my life far out weigh the struggles.. Like we're told over and over again through every trial there are treasures.. We'll here are my days of treasures.. And this commences day one of my treasure and what I'm thankful for.

I am so thankful for the most wonderful man on high. W/o him were would I be in life. A JUST God, a forgiving God. A God that has brought me from my weakest stations in life to the most happiest. With out his sacrifice we wouldn't have what we do..
So today being day One, I'm Thankful for my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for Him where would we all be... THANK YOU JESUS!


My hiding place, my safe refuge, my treasure, Lord, You are.... my friend and king anointed one, most holy...
Alot has happened in the last week. WOW! where does the time go? We celebrated Mel's 27th birthday. My gosh she was going on 17 when I met her dad. Geesh! Now she is almost thirty with two beauties for daughters. The three of them just fill our entire existence. Amazing. Nothing makes Mike so proud, then to hear, "Grampa..."and string something along in a sentence. He just giggles and I know that his heart melts every time. She is definently a grampa's girl. funny thing is that I'm not jealous. Why should I be? The girl has her Granny times too. She runs up to me, put her arms around my neck and says, "I love you soooooooooo much!" and gives you a huge kiss on the lips..
Kaylee, is the quiet one. But you see her feelings, expressions and love through her eyes. She knows who her granny and grampy are and she will smile, coo and roll her eyes at you... She is awesome!
I still have a deep longing for my son. He desires, that even though his dad is going through yet another separation from Whitney and they are going to counseling.That no matter what, he doesn't want to leave his dad. I admire the relationship he has with his dad, don't get me wrong. But I'm jealous in the same right. I miss my boy. I hate that he isn't living with us. I hate that I don't have a part in his life with raising him. I hate the idea that we had to move, to try and get on our feet and start a new life. I hate the idea that in order to do so, we are digging deeper in before we can get out.. When will we have a break??
We don't live beyond our means.. My goodness, we don't have tv. We share Internet with a friend(lord forgive us)We are paying rent, deposits, electric, water. That is it.. It's the deposits that is killing us. We are paying total with rent $1000 a month. that's Mike's two paychecks.. Then my check covers utilities and his meds.. i haven't even made it to the Dr to get my meds as of yet.. Never have the funds to get there. WE don't have car insurance, we drive a 94 chevy S10, that seems to break down in the most in opportune times. We had to get a payday loan to cover the entire expense and since then we've done nothing but continue to go downhill.
With Mel moving in, we are hoping for a pick up. she is suppose to be paying $300 a month and help with food. But right now she had a huge issue with the welfare up at home and now has to finally get to go apply in Fla state welfare, next week. But until she starts seeing some cash from it, she only pays $200 and helps with food.. That $200 doesn't cover the extra on the rent..
I know that through faith and God's word, we will be able to recover from this.. I just know it. I just have to continue to have the faith and do as I'm suppose to so I can except what He has in store for us..
Mike came out and said tonight, I really would love to go to heavy equipment school. You know that is my all out dream.. But for some reason, I'm being pushed or drawn to look further into marine tech schooling. :o) That's a huge plus, that school is right here in town! Where Heavy equipment is in Lakeland. Like Melissa said, I would love to move further south. But if the hospital in Pensacola is suppose to be one of the top in the nation, why would I leave. So I believe Mike feels the same way. So in the meantime, due to the fact that he really hates his job, we are going to start Monday and put applications in to different places and see what he can come up with. And again, with the grace and love of God, He will provide the right answers to where we belong.
Oh I did get to make it to the soup kitchen and food bank to volunteer on Weds. What a inspirational, wonder day, did I have. I not only felt blessed for being there and helping those less fortunate then I, but also I met some really wonderful ladies and gentlemen that filled my heart with such love and joy. I also got what they called "saved" I believe. Now all my life, I thought that meant being baptized. I didn't realize it wasn't that at all. Granted I have always had the Lord in my life and in my heart, and I've fought off Satan as much as I humanly possibly could. But it amazed me to have three women put their hands on me and pray over me. Two ladies, Jane ? and Toni Ferguson prayed for so many things to happen in my life as well as my husband's and to open my heart a bit more for Christ to be able to come in and linger and lead me down the path that I must tread. But they also blessed me for strength on my body, for my fibro and other ailments and when i raised my arms to let the spirit flow through, Jane also prayed that my Psoriasis BE GONE! as she stated and be free of my body. It was just fantastic! After they were done and I went to leave, I felt so free, so energetic. I couldn't believe it. I felt I could run the block. I worked with diligence and strength. It was fantastic! Come the next day, I still felt great and the next. It's now Wee early Sunday morning and I don't have any fibro great pains at all. I have a bit of ache from the humidity in the air and a pinch from a kidney stone releasing in my bladder. That's it! Oh and my Psoriasis. Is starting to break and clear up.. How cool is that?? PRAISE GOD! I just love it!!!!
Tomorrow, after church, they are going to have trunk or treat for the kids.. Just like they do in Newport and Scituate. Then after that is Halloween festivities and such inside the building. They are going to have a moon walk and other fun things for the kids as well as older ones.. I will have to take my camera and take pics so I can post on here..
Sorry about the drag post. Sometimes life just isn't all peaches and cream and lately it's been more sour then ripe. but then some days it's peaches and roses all in one.. Thanks be to Jesus for his love and I know He will answer our prayers, whether they be good or bad... Thank you Jesus!

Saturday, October 23, 2010

looking fwd to a great weekend

Well now that it's 3:37 am and I'm just now starting to wind down from a decent day, I thought I would jump in and put in our weekend plans. I'm actually pretty excited with a little bit of a disappointment. Later on this Saturday afternoon, my hubby and I are going to the bike rally they are having here in Holt, Fla.. We've been looking forward to this for a couple of months now. He even put in for the night off at work to be able to enjoy it and relax with out having to rush home and get ready for his ten o'clock shift. How cool a three day weekend..
Sure!!! They just informed him tonight at work that there is what they call a suicide watch (where a boy either threatens or teases or acts like he wants to take his life) and so they took his "time off" approval away. B/c with that they have to have a full staff of five there at all times. B/c one has to sit right inside the boy's tent and watch him breathe for the entire night. Seeing as there is ONLY five people there on staff for night watch. He isn't allotted his time off.
So now, since we have to wait for his pay til 2pm, we will only have a few hours of enjoyment there, instead of a whole entire evening. And of course this is the last night they will have the rally. CRAP!! Oh well, have to look at it on the bright side that we are even going at all. The weather is suppose to be warm and sunny and so we have to look forward to the little bits of pleasure we will have.
Then come Sunday we'll go to church. Hoping to make the 8:30 am service (ha ha if I wake on time. That's a toughy) Then Mike wants to go to Pensacola and explore, as well as go to the Harley dealer and poke around. This is Mike's most favorite place, next to the beach. Which have to say, was in that same conversation along with going to the the HD dealer. lol So we will have to see.
It is also our daughter's 27th birthday. We are planning a nice dinner along with her desire for an ice cream cake for dessert. So I have to say, all in all we are looking forward to a really splendid weekend. And I will get some walking exercise in this round. WOO HOO!!! I've missed my walks.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

another down day

Ok this has been like day 5 of my flare. It should be coming down and not feeling worse or spreading. Last night my shoulder blades were in so much agony that they burned. I took some medicine and came to bed and laid on the heating pad the entire night. Bad part of that is that, I must of laid too much at an angle b/c when I finally woke up today, I had troubles walking. My hip felt like it was all out of joint and instead of rotating like it should it felt like it was off and popping in and out and rotating around as I walked. Mann it was soo painful. So yet another day and night went by that Ive not done my walk. I think it's been almost a week since i've actually walked. I am making myself do things and I went to the pharmacy today to get Mike's insulin. Then I cooked and cleaned up supper and finished another two loads of wash today (oh yeh we finally got machines. had to rent from Aaron's but it's better paying the rental then killing myself everytime i do the wash and with Melissa here and kaylee puking the way she does, we just couldn't keep up) and made Mike's lunch. That was enough for me. After I folded the two loads and put them away, i put Mel's last load in wash and her other in the dryer. Now I'm the bed on the heating pad again. Vowing I won't fall asleep in any awkward positions. Don't want another day like today.
I tried going to the Dr and getting an appt set up with her. But I guess it's her DeFuniak day. So I'm going to try and call her tomorrow to get Mike's other prescription filled and get that appt. I need better meds to help. I really want to get some better help then, what I'm doing now.
We have been searching online for really cheap flights for Xmas. Looks like we just may have a very full house for Xmas this year. I"m so happy. I'm praying nightly that the prices stay with in range and I get to afford Jw coming down. I miss him sooo much!!!! Then he will be able to fly with the twins father and Amanda for companionship. I won't have to pay for a stewardess to fly with him.. how cool.. Keep your fingers crossed for me too please....

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

have to share this. It's so hits to home

Today's Truth

"With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters [and girlfriends] this should not be" (James 3:9 TNIV and girlfriends added).

Friend To Friend

Catherine and I set out for a lazy summer stroll through the neighborhood just before the fireflies emerged to celebrate the setting of the sun. We chatted about raising boys, working husbands, and decorating dilemmas. When we arrived back at her house, she invited me to come in and look at some fabric swatches for a new sofa. Before I knew it, a few minutes turned into a couple of hours.

"Oh, my!" I exclaimed. "It's ten o'clock . I've been gone for over two hours! I bet Steve's worried sick. He doesn't even know where I am. I'd better give him a call before I start back home."

When I dialed the number, the answering machine picked up. After I listened to my sweet Southern greeting, I left a bitter message.

"Steve, I was calling to let you know I'm at Catherine's. I thought you'd be worried, but apparently you don't even care because you won't even pick up the phone!" Click. I said my goodbyes to Catherine and left feeling somewhat dejected. I'm wandering around in the dark all alone and he doesn't even care, I mumbled to no one in particular.

As my eyes adjusted to the darkness, I noticed someone coming toward me. It was Sir Galahad riding on his steed...his bicycle!

"Where have you been?" Steve desperately asked. "I've been riding all over the neighborhood looking for you! Do you know what time it is?"

"Oh, you do care," I said with a grin, giving him a big hug.

"What are you talking about?" he asked.

"Nothing. Let's go home." I answered.

When we got back home, I quickly erased the message on the machine before Steve could hear my reprimanding words. "Whew," I thought, "That was close."

A few days later, Steve called me from work.

" Sharon , have you listened to the answering machine lately?"

"No. Why?"

"Well, I think there's something on there you need to hear."

We hung up and I reached for my cell phone to call my home phone. The message on the answering machine went something like this.

(The voice of a Sweet Southern Belle) "Hello, you've reached the Jaynes' residence. We're unable to answer the phone right now... (Enter the voice of Corella Deville) "I was calling to let you know I'm at Catherine's. I thought you'd be worried, but apparently you don't even care because you won't pick up the phone! (Return of Sweet Southern Bell ) At the sound of the beep, leave your number and we'll get back with you as soon as possible." Beep.

"Oh, my goodness!" I screamed. "How did this happen! How many people have heard this over the past three days?"

I called the phone company and they explained that sometimes during a thunderstorm (which had occurred three days prior), lightening strikes the wires and answering machine messages get scrambled. The old message somehow got attached to the greeting.

I was mortified. It sounded like Dr. Jekyll and Mrs. Hyde reincarnate.

"Lord," I prayed. "This is so embarrassing."

"Yes, it is," He replied.

Well, He didn't really say that in so many words. It was more like this. "With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters, this should not be. Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? My brothers and sisters, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water" James 3:9-12 TNIV).

"OK Lord, I get the message." I prayed. But unfortunately, so did a lot of other people.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Sunday 3 Oct.

“Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring forth.”- Proverbs 27:1
Is that kind of the same things as don't assume things will always fall into place, b/c you planned it that way? Mike is always telling me this. Especially when it comes to money. We always lose out, when we assume it will be there..
What a great week this week. It has gone by so quickly. Today at church was fabulous! I love sitting in those pews and just listening to the Pastor speak. He is such a great teacher. We are still on the subject of "My best friend" The Holy Spirit. If we allow Him into our lives we will be so much happier.. It amazes me that some people are afraid to have the Spirit in their lives. Other's just don't b/c then they are guilty of so much. I myself want more of Him in my heart, my soul, my life. I want the Spirit to be with me always.
It's funny when I was growing up and even after I had my son, I would go to my mom and seek advice on just about everything I ever did in my life. And my mom was awesome about giving me the answers I needed or desired. After her death, It was the hardest thing in my life to have to make those decisions on my own. Then upon learning, alot of my decisions, I can still get answers to,if I just asked. I just needed to ask in the proper ways. It may not be from my mom now. but, I'm blessed enough to know that if I seek hard enough and pray about it, I still can get answers to my questions. Granted it's not as an instant, like Mom's answers. But, that is ok too. I need to learn sometime.
We took Kyla to church with us today. I was a bit leary of sending her to the nursery, b/c she has really never been anywhere like that w/o someone from her family. But it was so funny. when the lady asked Kyla her name, she replies, "in a minute." So the lady says, "ok when your ready to tell me your name, I'll be ready to hear it." LOL I put her down to the floor so she could stand. We pointed to "her" special door (they have cut out of the wall for their size) and she was OFF! Right through the door w/o even looking back to see if we were following. We never heard a peep out of her the entire service. Here Melissa worried about sticking her in pre-school for a time. Today proved her to having no issues being with other children her age. So cool!
Susan and I are going to try and up our walks to 2.5 miles this week. We've mastered 2miles w/o a hitch. So I wanted to try and increase by a half mile at a time. Hoping that will work. Oh well, we'll see what tomorrow brings...

Friday, October 1, 2010

Friday Oct 1

“Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the LORD is kept safe.”- Proverbs 29:25
Isaiah 11-13, Ephesians 4

Talk about worn out. I've been walking on a daily basis with my neighbor's mom and we have been doing 2miles a night. I just love it! I'm exhausted by midnight and I sleep an entire night away. I don't happen to wake every few hours wonderin why it's happening. It's funny but I'm so wiped that I barely can stay awake to do anything. I've not read my book for days on end. Which is different for me. alot of times i would do all my internet work and then read a few chapts before I would close the book up and make my self sleep. LOL i'm so out of it and nodding on and off I can't even type this right w/o fighting to keep myself awake.
but I will have to finish writing this tomorrow night. I can't force myself to stay awake any longer..