“Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God.”- John 3:20-21
Isaiah 7-8, Ephesians 2

Well I see that it's been a bit since i've posted. I've actually been really struggling to stay awake past 11 lately has been a chore. Then with Melissa and the girls coming, I've been quite busy during the days as well. No wonder I'm worn out. But it is something I wouldn't change for anything in the world. I love having them here with me. It's been fabulous.
I started walking again. It's been nice. I'm going with Mandy's mom, Susan. Sweet sweet lady. Going through a hell of a time and really needs a listening ear. So while she gets things off her chest we walk around a gorgeous duck pond. The track is half mile long and so far we've covered two miles. We just started last night. They even have a work out field with equipment, it's gravity controlled, so you work on your own weight. It's really cool..
But anyway, I wanted to check in since it's been a bit. But can promise, even though I've not blogged, I have still been faithfully reading my daily verses. Just not blogging them all..

Saturday 25th

“My dear children, I write this to you so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have one who speaks to the Father in our defense—Jesus Christ, the Righteous One.”- 1 John 2:1
Song of Solomon 6-8, Galatians 4

Considering the fact that I slept from like 9 pm till 2:30am then I stayed up till around 6:30 when my husband calls me and says he has a blown out tire and the spare doesn't fit. Go figure. We have had nothing but problems with damn tires. Never trust Northern back yard mechanics.. They are just not as with it as southeners. First one mechanic, when replacing gas tank never put back our spare and we wound up stranded in the middle of no where in Northern Maine. And now hubby's cousin, a back yard mechanic gives him a tire and says it will fit, use it for your spare. Sure!
So I had to wake the neighbor to see if I could use her car to go and help. Mind you he is over 30 mins away. I not only had to wake her, but she had to come out and move her sister in laws car. GREAT! I finally get out there and he is struggling with one lug that is so tight on there, when we both worked at it with the lug wrench and a long pipe for leverage, we couldnt get it off. I had to drive him all the way home to get more tools and his torch to heat it up to soften it up. The torch finally worked after twenty mins of straight heat.
Then we actually get the spare on the back (even though it is over 2 inches bigger) and he drove it home, so we could drop off the neighbor's car and then drove to Walmart to purchase a new tire. The lady says, Oh it will be over an hour before it's done. GREAT! Ok, I'll do my shopping while we wait. I walked that store for a good 45 mins.
I knew I was tired because my shoulders and neck started going out on me and the black spots were appearing. The spots work it's way to complete blackness after awhile. Thank God it's only for a second or two, but it's an eerie feeling while standing up and you start to get dizzy with it. As soon as you get the full on effect of dizzy, you go back to normal. I'm told that is a common fibro thing and that it happens sitting or standing. Which I know, I've had it on the motorcycle (thank God as a passenger) and also in a swimming pool. But non the less it's a scary feeling. So I ended up going back to wait on their bench.
Finally we made it home around 12:30 and I ate lunch. Breakfast consisted of a cinnamon danish (yes I know) and a razzberry ice tea. I ate left over veg. stir fry. And headed up with my hubby for more sleep. My poor hubby was wiped after working all night.
Anyway, to make this long story come to an end, He is now headed back to work and I'm patiently, not so patiently waiting for our daughter and twin granddaughters to get here. They are like another two and half to three hours away. Even though, i would love to go and crawl under my covers with the ceiling fan on high and go to sleep till they get here. But I'm too anxious now b/c they are so close. We haven't seen them for over six months. My poor hubby had to go to work.. He won't be home until around 7 in the morning..

thurs 9/23

“So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.”- Hebrews 10:35-36
Song of Solomon 1-3, Galatians 2
I'm getting so excited. In approx. 4 hours or so Melissa, Amanda and the twins will load up in Mel's truck and head south.. YES! She is officially moving down here. OMG I'm so anxious. My heart still breaks to the idea that my son is still up there. I can't believe how much it gets to me knowing that he remains with his dad. He tells me on the phone that he is happy. But I can't imagine how. He is treated like crap. I can hear it when we talk. I can hear it in his voice. Xmas is three months away and I've got to get the money up for that child to have a plane ticket down. I cannot bare to be w/o him for much longer.
Then come February (hoping around mid winter vacation) we'll go up to pick him up when we go and get Melissa's things in storage. Then I will fly him back to be able to start school. Then we will see from there. But in the meantime it breaks my heart knowing that we are so far apart and have so long till we can be together again. But I'm told this is best, he chose it. If it's meant to be, he will move down permanently. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed and I pray daily for him..
He was so cool, his friend told him that Jw had a special gift. So he looked it up in the bible and read to me what he read. It was neat to hear him read about the gift of tongues. For I was just reading that awhile back and texting Mike at work certain verses that lifted me. It was cool that he liked the same verses.. Jw has grown so much in the church. He loves the Lord so much. His testimony has grown by leaps and bounds. He tells me tonight, "I think the Lord is telling me things Mom." I said in reply, "The Lord speaks to us all, so I truly believe he is son, Now open you heart and listen to what he has to say." I'm so proud of him..
Oh well, didn't do much today again. My hips and upper thighs are very sore again. Had hard time moving and such. I did cook dinner and get Mike's lunch. After he went to work I took a shower and then relaxed till I fell asleep. And yet again, I woke at 2:30 only to be awake yet once again.. hmmm When will this end???

sept 22

Ecclesiates 7:14 When times are good, be happy;
but when times are bad, consider:
God has made the one
as well as the other.
Therefore, a man cannot discover
anything about his future.
Boy does that make one sit back and think. hmm. So does that mean in all our times of trouble.. We have a learning expirience and we must learn from it.. I'd say.. Just like every trial there is a treasure.. WOW!!!
I did pretty well here and then went out of this page, I guess before saving it. So now I have nothing that i've written go figure. I haven't written Since What Saturday or Sunday. I've been so exhausted. I'm sure it's total recovery over the weekend with Barry here. We had a decent time. With the lack of sleep that I had though, it really played a huge role on these last few days. I've been wiped out the entire day. ALL I want to do is sleep. But i would refuse to do even an hour, so I could attempt to sleep at my regular times. Alot of good it did. Once I would be asleep, after a couple of hours I would wake again and have a hard time going back to sleep. Both Monday and Tuesday i have gottne out of bed at a very early time. Monday was 9am and Tuesday was 7am. So last night by the time we finished dinner and finished making Mike's lunch, i was ready to fall over. But I had to do laundry.
I finished that by ten and I nodded off and on at the computer till 11 and past out till 2am. I've been awake ever since. But I'm so ready now to go back to sleep. But I knew I had to do some catch up on my bible reading. I hate missing so many days. I'm up to weds message. I'll do that tonight. I need to close my eyes the last few hours before Mike gets home from work. Luckily he has to drop a boy off at DJJ. so that will give me to like 9 before he shows up...
I will post some pics of our weekend w/Barry and some of today from our *mike and I* ride and river stuff. So till then G'nite!

Friday Sept 17th

“Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.”- Philippians 2:3-4

Proverbs 27-29, 2 Corinthians 10

It was a pretty good day today. I slept till five thirty pm and had to rush to get supper and Mike's lunch but it all worked out as well as me getting house vacuumed, bathrooms spotless, and floors done. Love it! My house looks good.
Barry made it here by ten tonight. It took him 8 hours to ride up from Orlando. He says to me, unless i can get a really cheap flight up, don't expect me to ride up again. LOL It took alot out of him to do this. but then at One o'clock in the morning he says, come on let's go for a ride and get something to eat. LOL So we rode down to Whataburger and got burgers and fries. I cheated a bit and got a root beer. It's a bit off the diet plan, but when the end of the day comes, it will be actually under my total caloric intake. So I'm good. Which will make up for tomorrow's intake. LOL We are going out tomorrow night for supper. Barry's treat. Go figure. How cool is that? I love it!!! above is pics of the site I use and one of the nutrition trackers. And pic of the logo..
It feels so good to have company for US this time. Since we've been down here, people has come and gone from this house. We've never had someone come from out of town to visit. It's even nicer b/c technically he's from out of state. LOL But I guess it really wouldn't count since he drove up from Orlando. lol
Oh well, good news is even with all the sleep I've gotten today, I'm still pretty beat. But in hour wise, I only got like five and half hours sleep. No wonder I'm tired. But it will work out nice for tomorrow. I won't be sleeping the day away with him here... I like that idea.
I'll get a picture of Whataburger. I've never heard of it, till we moved her. It is a really cool place. It's kind of set up like the Wendy's in Middletown. But I have to say that the burgers out rank in taste and moistness all the fast food places I've been to... NICE!!! Will definantly go back there from now on, instead of Sonic...

Thurs. 9/16

“Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children”- Ephesians 5:1
Proverbs 25-26, 2 Corinthians 9

Today has been a very laid back, relaxing, regrouping type of day. I slept til five thirty. I hate sleeping that late. Then I'm rushed to fix supper, clean that up, make Mike's lunch for work then get him out the door on time. It's a whole rushing manner. I hate it. Mike is like don't sweat it. It's not that late, you'll be fine. I'm like you don't understand. It's so hard to go to sleep and hard enough to stay asleep at times. Especially if he wakes before me. He is so voiceterous and is not quiet by no means. So I wake, sleep, wake, sleep, wake. And he wonders why I get cranky over it. lol He made it all a joke and tried to tease me the whole entire time. Oh well, it could be worse. I could be so crabby that he crabs right back. I guess he is trying to lighten the mood.
I also learned that I'm taking in alot more calories then I'm suppose to. Here I thought I was doing really well in cooking healthier and eating less. And I'm still like 500 to 1000 calories over my caloric intake. It scares me to think what I was eating before I started cutting back. Wow! Imagine that???
I also woke very sore today. My knees felt liek they were giving out on me and my hips were hurting. To think all those trips up the neighbor's stairs did me in..Another great reason to why I really need my own washer and dryer.. Between the lugging back and forth to the laundry mat or the numerous stair climbing to do it next door. It's not in the best interest for my health. lol NO really it's too much for my fibro. It causes me to take a two day break of doing hardly nothing. I hate that!!
We are getting excited. Barry (my ex's brother) is coming for a couple days. Can't wait, love him like my own brother. I'll have some good stuff to blog about with him around. Maybe we'll all go riding this weekend and show him the sites... LOVE IT!!!!

Weds. sept 15

“[Two Kinds of Wisdom] Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom.”- James 3:13
Proverbs 22-24, 2 Corinthians 8

It was a decent day today. I got to sleep in due to the fact that I didn't fall asleep till almost 8:30 this morning. So I ended up sleeping up till around 4:30. Wow! So now let's see. That's going to put a damper in our company coming this weekend. My ex-brother in law is coming up till Sunday sometime. Can't wait. Haven't seen this guy in a number of years. He is living down in Orlando, going to the Harley school down there. He's going to be a HD mechanic. AWESOME! I"m sure in the 18 months that he will be going to school, we'll probably see an awful lot of him.
I did get a load of laundry done at the neighbor's today. Did I tell you that I have the best neighbors. They are awesome! They let us use their cars when needed, just hand over the keys. When the truck was down and out, Mike used their car to go to work over night. I use their machines for wash (they won't let me pay for the usage) and to boot they alway make triple amounts of food and invite us over ALOT! They just rock!! Granted Teresa has an ancient dryer and it may take two or more hours to dry (after you let it cool down from it shutting itself off) but hey, who's complaining when it's free?
When I finally got back tonight at one thirty (am) so yes technically it's Thursday already. But who's that technical? lol Played my frontierville in Facebook for a bit. Now that I've done my reading, i need to go up and fold and put away the clothes. That would be nice.. HUH?? Lol