Sunday update

Well I have to say yes it's been a very long time since I've been here. But I decided today after coming home from church, I don't have any empty notebooks hanging around and sometimes, when I do write for long periods of times, my hand and fingers cramp up. So why not go and start a live journal online and keep up that way. I am going to fill my inspirations as well as my personal insites on my life and life around me. Fair warnings, all may not be pleasant and I may gripe about things, but this way I can get that off my chest and carry on with my day(s) in a Christ like manner and be able to be the person that I needed to be. I have vowed that I am changing my ways and need to stop putting myself in Marah and lead myself BACK to Eflin is it and stay in the light of our Lord Jesus Christ. I am ready! I also went up today to Sister Christy and I told her that I was emailing her all my information and I wanted her to lead me and use me where she needed me to be. For I cannot grow spiritually alone and my family cannot grow spiritually w/o someone stepping forward and being the vessel that is needed to help it along. As I told Brandi Carrano (she and her husband are couple missionaries in Madrid Sprain) I told her how I'm a firm believer on when Mohammed went to the mountain b/c the mountain wouldn't come to him. (obviously) I'm not one to sit back and wait for someone to come and pick up my mat and carry me to Jesus b/c I need his light in my life. I am going to pick up my mat (as long as the good Lord allows me) and I'm going to carry it myself and run as fast as I can to his feet and take in as much light as I can get from him. And if someone allow the way needs me to pick theirs up too and carry it them for them, I can do that too. I"m here.. I'm ready to be the person I am and Help as many as I can..
Thank you Lord for this inspiration and Thank you Holy Spirit for coming into my soul and opening my heart and giving me the inspiration i needed this week at women's conference to know I need this so very much!I have met a couple of new friends at womens conference but the most inspiring that I've met was Brandi Carrano. Not for her talk, not for what she did on the alter. But for her radiance, but for her warmth, her love of Christ and the Almighty God Himself. Her love that just flows from her being and as she wrapped her arms around me I knew I had to befriend this woman and cling on to her love and learn from her. I put a friend request into her facebook and wrote her a short letter to let her know what she did in my heart just in that few very short moments..
It all started with me sitting in he pew listening to Sis. Anne Bosman, my heart just over flowing with the words and prayers that she was annointing upon others. The message or the "word" that she was presenting at that given moment.. I kept hearing in my head, "you need a hug, you need a hug, I need a hug, dang it you really need a hug." Now mind you No one can hear my heart, no one can hear what is being said in my head..So if the hug can't come to me (mountain won't go to Mohammed) then by all means I needed to go to that hug.. Now I felt like I needed to go to Sis. Anne b/c she made me feel like I needed this. But as the program ended and I got up to go down to Sis. Anne, something literally stopped me. Turned me to Sis Brandi and pushed me to her. I looked at her and said, "I'm sorry I really need a hug and since of course, hugs just don't come running to you." This wonderful woman wrapped her arms around my whole body and just squeezed me to her and whispered in my ear the love or Jesus and the love of life and just over flowed an already full heart. Talk about WOW!!! Talk about bawling your eyes out more then what I have already done. HOLY SMOKES!!! It was like I had known this lady my whole entire life and never let a moment pass w/o conversing with her.I just love this woman... I can't wait to actually get to know more of her and her life in Spain. She is working miracles and I pray that the miracles follow her in her life.
But this is just a "small" don't laugh but a small synapsis of what has been going on in my life these past few days. I can't wait to be able to write about more. I have set a goal to give a few minutes a day to the Father and to ponder on Him. So I will do my best to come on a daily basis and write about that..

Sunday May 23

Now that we are actually in Fla and we are in our own place. I guess it's a good time to get on the ball and get back into blogging again.. Even today in church Paster Dave said, "need to take a twenty mins to half hour to jouralize your life." I'm not sure if I'm ready for that long of journalizing but at least a few mins. a day is sufficient enough. He also stated that we should use "the word" as part of our journalizing..
Well today is such a perfect place to start. The lesson today was on waiting rooms. We are in the waiting room of our life, what are we to do with it and what NOT to do with it. We are suppose to serve others. For example if we pray 95% of the time for others, the Lord will see to it that the other 5% is taken care of for us. The scripture that he used for "waiting rooms" was of Paul (acts) in prison and how in the years he was there what he did while waiting for his release. He wrote the most spiritual of letters while in prison. He continued to make the best of his life even though people were trying to take the best of it away. That is what we are suppose to do. NOt complain, not stress, not doubt God in his inentions. BUt have the faith in God and serve where you can and let everything fall into place.
This couldn't of been any better for us. We have had life pretty easy here and there. Granted never perfect, but easy. Now just as I was telling Mike, we started to see things fall into place way too quickly and we took advantage of it. Then just when we think all is perfect, the rug comes out from under us and we struggle a bit more... Just like our house. WE have it, but, just as easy we can lose it.. We pray for the rent to be there every month, while Mike is waiting for his job to open up the training class so he can work.. The electric deposit, we had no idea where it was coming from. Tri-County Communitee center would only pay for half. We had to find the other half.. God furnished that for us.. We were in hopes of help from a food bank, I have volunteered to work the soup kitchen in return. I will be calling Monday to discuss the needs on Weds..
Even growing up I was always taught how service to others is very important and the blessings that come from it. Todays lesson was 110% on the money...

what week/Glad it's over

I tell you.. It has been a week from hell. My poor honey has that fluid back behind his eyes again.. you know the macula edema. Well, granted it's leaking.. He has scheduled for the laser surgery AGAIN come Jan 7 and another the 14th. Well to top it off Mike lost a very close friend and what is still considered a family member. Debbie, is Faith's sister, so it was his sister in law. When Faith and Mike divorced, her whole side of the family kept him as family anyway. (awesome family mind you, they are even great to me) After she past on Sunday at one o'clock. That night while laying in bed his left eye just started draining a reddish fluid and he got up and ran to bathroom.. The sack errupted and was draining out of his eye. The stress just was too much and escaped the only way it could, I guess. Anyway, so Monday morning I called Surgeon and got an appt for him that afternoon. Dr checked it out and said no damage done, it will be a little while but it will finish draining and you will see better again. Mind you he only seen a big yellow glaze as it was... Poor bugga..
Then come Last night (weds) we went to Debbie's wake and then after the funeral we went to the Half Moon restraunt where Debbie's husband Don works at and had a gathering in her honor. Well, just as we were taking off our coats, my phone chimed saying I had a voice mail message. It actually never rang. But anyway, I normally would of ignored it but had the impression, better check. So i called it to find out that my Aunt Carol left me a message to call back as soon as I could... So I went outside and rang her. Only to find out that My Aunt Marie had a heart attack and was in Newport ICU and in a drug induced coma to help heal her from her surgery that she almost didn't get b/c she had a major infection spreading through her body. Through testing they found she had a mass in her lower bowel. So they had to operate before that killed her. They gave her a 50/50 chance on it.
She came through the surgery with a colostomy bag and until the surgery starts to repair itself and they are sure she can physically handle any type of pain, they will leave her in the coma. If all goes well and she wakes up, they are hopeing eventually to have her sent up to Miriam Hospital in Providence and then from there to rehab.
So now, I'm like, Ok Lord.. It's Christmas, how much more bad news can we handle? A friend of mine that I grew up with in Newport reminded me that Father doesn't give us any more then what we can physically handle. SO Please Lord, I'm at my limit. I've had all I could possibly deal with. I am driving Mike to work nightly and picking him up and getting approx five to six hours of sleep each day. I'm trying to maintain stability on a man that has been stressing over this loss as well as his health. Trying to maintain feeding this house on very little until the 23rd of the month when more money comes in for food. We are down to bare bones, But we are surviving. Going to take some money out of xmas shopping and get a few staples until then. I'm dealing with cranky babies that don't know what's wrong with them, which makes their mommy very cranky.. So LORD like I asked, Am I done yet????
All I can say is, Thank you Lord that my Fibro hasn't had a flair up and I'm down and out. But chances are when things start to settle and I can go back and concentrate on myself, I'm sure it won't pass me by...
Ok enough venting.. LOL usually I don't do that on here. But I needed the vent.. Thanks so much for having the patience to let me and read through to the end.. I love my friends and family and I am so very thankful for them for loving me..
If I don't get back here before Christmas May you all have a wonderful Christmas!!! Hope Santa is good to you all.... HUGS

my Xmas deco in the kitchen...

as Christmas slowly arrives

Now that Thanksgiving has come and gone and we are almost in the middle of December, getting prepared for Christmas. Amazing! This year has really gone by very quickly. I guess when you spend your life half in the bed and the other half doing everything you possibly can before you get knocked on your butt with the fibro. I guess it would go by very quickly. We have had a decent year. Mike and I have gone to different places this year and enjoyed the time we have had visiting with friends and family. Hopefully this upcoming year we are able to be able to do it again.
I just got decorations up last night. Didn't do a whole lot this year but it looks pretty good. We haven't put the tree up as of yet, though. We are going to see if we can find one that isn't so much. We like having a real one over a fake one any day. But have to see, what the prices are. We don't want a huge one, but don't want a tiny one either. I will take pics of what is done and show ya how I did.
I still need to post pics of Thanksgiving.. LoL it was a good day over at Michelle's. Jw came and spent the four days with us. Which made that very nice also.
We are going to be doing volunteer work next weekend at the Harley shop. It's customer appreciation days. So we volunteered to help out where needed. It gave us each a 30% discount on any merchandise for those days. That will help, ALOT! Mike wants a new Zipped sweat shirt.. His that he wears for work is all tattered. He's been wearing it for two years now and with carrying wood and such, it can wear clothes out..
Well, that's about it for now. I will do my best to try and keep up with this as much as I can.. Hugs and loves to all who read this.

cleaning

I'm still not very good at this. But getting there. Been busy the last couple of days cleaning, cleaning, cleaning. Yesterday was the BIG clean in the master bedroom for us. Mike did his side the day before, which puts me on alert to get mine done. So of course then, right after supper I picked up all off the floor, organized all I could and vaccuumed. Then I finished all the wash and my blanket. With having dogs you have to wash blankets a bit more often then I really would want to.
Today I finished supper and with the help of Kyla we swept the floors and then after Mike left for work I bleached and washed them. I did it on my hands and knees to make sure they were good and clean this time. Nothing like washing the floors and go to walk on them with white sox right after and have the bottoms turn black anyway. So I tried it the hard way. By the time I was done, my arms and back were sore and my hands were shaking. But it is all done. Thank goodness.
Tomorrow Mike and I go and pick up Jw for Thanksgiving break. Can't wait, we'll be together for four days. I'm excited. As much as a child can drive a parent right up the walls. You do miss them so when they are not around.
We are going to Michelle's house for Thanksgiving dinner. WE both got a turkey basket from church, which was a huge help. B/c we are struggling financially this year. But we chose to combine our baskets and the gift cards for the turkeys and get one big turkey instead of two small ones. Dougie is going to get a ham so we have a little of both. He cooks them so AWESOME in the crock pots, I can't wait. It's going to be a really good day..
Well, Melissa announced to us last night, that come Jan. 1st she is moving out. She is going to move into Michelle's house for less money. So now we get to re-tighten our belts yet one more time and struggle through till we get taxes done and see where we end up from here. We are really concerned b/c we are not sure what we are doing in the near future. Mike wants to enroll in a school, possibly motorcylcle mechanic or diesal or even marine. BUT he is at a loss at to exactly where right now. So in the mean time, we really don't want to move another time before he determines where exactly he is going get excepted. So we may just stay here and struggle it out until he figures it out. Will have to see.
That's about all new right now. Will catch up more after Thanksgiving..

most updated pics of the family

This is Melessa from this past summmer. She looks so good.


Mike with the dogs. He was teasing me, b/c he knows I hate different things on the table. he was putting Haylee on the table. Everyone was laughing at me.. I wanted to kill him..


This is last Sunday Nov. 1st. We were just leaving church.


This is the most updated pic of the kids. Emma Michelle's daughter, Xavier, Valerie's grandson, Kaylee is in the chair and Kyla on far right. They have gotten so big...



This pic was taken end of summer of JW. He was on the phone with one of his "girlfriends" man they start younger every generation.



This is Mike and I just this past Sept. We were in NJ. We went down to meet a couple friends from Facebook. One flew in from Australia to come see NY and meet us. The other from NJ. He hooked us up with the great extended stay hotel. Great people they are..

Well, I hope now that I've gotten back to this blog thing, I can continue to keep up with it. Sorry I've been so neglectful of it. Facebook is so addicting that I've neglected everything else on here. Hope all is well and we can stay connected again.. HUGS